United States -- Social life and customs -- 20th century -- Fiction; Women college students -- Fiction
The waiter brought their first course, and Grant began to talk of
impersonal matters. Why, oh, why, had they chosen such a place as this
for their first meeting? Joy thought. He had not once looked at her—the
way he had always looked at her, before.
When the waiter had taken their plates away, they met each other’s eyes
steadily for almost the first time that evening, and Grant’s face
softened. “You look rather tired to-night, Joy darling,” he said.
“Whatever on earth have you been doing to yourself? You work too hard on
your singing.”
“Oh, no, Grant—I’ve been neglecting it really—I’ll have to work much
harder to get it where I want it——”
“You sing well enough for me already—and after you belong to me, you’ll
not have to peg away at it any more.” He attacked his salad; the subject
was closed as far as he was concerned.
She was gazing at him wide-eyed. “You mean you wouldn’t want me to—oh,
of course—you—wouldn’t.” She moved her fork in and about her salad
aimlessly. Her mother had forgotten her voice—when she had met the man
she loved. She had forgotten it, in the rapture of _belonging_ to
him—that phrase had such an unpleasant sound. And the generations
before her mother had forgotten their voices for those they loved. She
was the result; and all the repression of generations lay within
her—simmering. She gave Grant a sudden alive, direct glance. This was
the man she loved and she had not forgotten her voice. How could this
be? He must teach her—teach her to forget—and not make her so vaguely
unhappy over such immaterialities as Jim Dalton.
“Hi, Joy! Cheerio, old dear!” She jerked her head up from contemplation
of nothing to see Davy Carter and Wigs Smith, Jerry’s and Sarah’s most
competent playmates, with some other youths, hailing her boisterously
while passing to a table close by. She managed a smile from her
abstraction, and fell to pushing her fork about again.
“You seem to have an unlimited supply of casual young men
acquaintances,” came from across the table in a voice that weirdly
reminded Joy of Mrs. Grey’s chill blue eyes.
“Grant, what a silly attitude to take!” she exploded. “There are
nineteen years in which you have not known me. It certainly would be
strange if in that time I had met no other men——”
She realized just that fatal fraction of an inch too late, that she had
said the wrong thing, and stopped, leaving the appeal in mid air, where
it stayed. His face had queerly altered, and the air tingled with
silence.
“Let’s go,” he said finally, in an even tone; “that is, if you do not
care to eat any more.”
She had eaten practically nothing throughout the dinner; but it was so
different from the day when they had both lost their appetites!
As they came through the dining room, Joy collided with a
showily-dressed woman who was entering with a large, greasy-looking man.
There had been sufficient room for them both to pass, but Joy’s mind had
been far away. The woman drew back and raised a monocle upon her.
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