To Evelyn, these daily meetings with Farquharson were the fulfilment of
a great ambition. She had wanted this ideal companionship all her life;
the real "give and take" from which alone happy marriages are formed, if
men and women would but realize the fact. It seemed to Evelyn that to
be useful to such a man as Farquharson, to be at hand whenever he wanted
her, and away when her presence might have been a distraction, to listen
and understand his aims while keeping her independent judgment, to share
the undramatic part of his work and leave him the substantial success,
was a task any woman might be proud of. She threw herself with absolute
ardour into his most minute interests and schemes; after a time he
trusted her even with the outline of plans which had not yet taken
tangible shape, recognizing the value of her quick perceptions and
sincerity.
"You limit my acquaintances, but you yourself know far too many people,"
said Farquharson one day abruptly. "They make claims upon you and you
give in to them. When I left you the other day there were four people
waiting in the dining-room, pensioners, claimants, I don’t know what
they were, but they annoyed me. You are a woman who could do something
if you set your mind to it. If these good folks want sympathy, let them
go to an idle or frivolous person who can afford to spend on them the
time you should devote to better things. Every one should have a set
purpose in life; trivial claims and small anxieties distract one in
spite of oneself."
"What set purpose can there be in the life of an ordinary woman of no
especial talent?" said Evelyn. "Only women of genius have real lives of
their own. Most of us are like poor little Alice—’part of the Red
King’s dream’—or some one else’s. If I died to-morrow, some of my
friends would canonize me and the rest forget. As far as acquaintances
go, one divides them into two sets: those one likes to know, and those
who like to know one. I am nice to the first because I want to be, and
nice to the second because I ought. I am not applying the rule to you,
of course—what is selfishness in a woman is singleness of purpose in a
man, remember."
Farquharson frowned.
"Leave cynicism to others. By the way, we haven’t looked at my morning
letters yet."
At the Wereminsters’ dinner party a week later, Farquharson was paired
off with Dora Beadon, encased as usual in her unyielding armour of
self-esteem. It was a compliment for which he was not perhaps
sufficiently grateful. He always found Miss Beadon dull, but to-night
she harassed him with a stream of impertinent questions intended to show
sympathy: "Why on earth don’t you do this? Haven’t you really done the
other? Everybody says——" and so forth.
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