Little Eyebright and her pund o' careGiberne, Agnes
Religion
Little Eyebright and her pund o' care
Giberne, Agnes
Christian life -- Juvenile fiction; Domestic fiction; Friendship -- Juvenile fiction; Money -- Juvenile fiction
It was a trying visit to pay. He was a tenderhearted man, and could not
endure to look upon distress. And, judging from people generally, he
expected to find the Landors overwhelmed by the blow which had fallen
upon them, Mr. Landor in depths of despair, Mrs. Landor in floods
of tears. She had kept up, it was true, while calling on his wife,
doubtless for her sake, but that she should continue to keep up was
beyond the bounds of reasonable expectation. Colin wondered sorrowfully
what he should say to comfort them.
Of course Mrs. Landor would "trust." Both of them would of course
"trust." He felt no doubt on that head. He always asserted the fact
of his own "trust," no matter how dismally certain he might feel that
everything was going wrong, no matter how dolefully hopeless he might
be of any help arriving in time to tide him over rocks ahead. His idea
of trust was vague, and therefore was quite compatible with a general
hopelessness.
By the time he reached the Rectory, his face had grown portentously
long over the thought of his friends' grief. Rather oddly, this blow
to them had acted with a rousing force upon himself. He had not for
months felt so hopeful, so light-hearted about his own affairs. It was
almost as if he had foreseen that something would happen, and had only
been mistaken in supposing it to be a something concerning himself.
Probably a truer explanation would be that Colin Mackenzie, after
repeated attacks of severe influenza, coming upon long years of hard
work, had fallen into a dyspeptic and nervous condition of body, which
condition had reacted on the mind, rendering him unable to take a fair
and reasonable view of things in general, more especially of business
questions.
As Mrs. Landor had once said, molehills grew to mountains in his
eyes, and a usually unselfish nature had become for the time morbidly
self-centred—a state of things largely physical, but not on that
account altogether free from blame.
Wakened now by the shock of his friends' trouble, he looked back upon
his own past mental condition with a curious sense of surprise, almost
of disgust. What could have made him talk as he had done to Euphrasia,
the day before she left home? Absurd,—when really there had been no
sufficient cause, but only some needful business uncertainties, and
a desperate fit of the "blues," inclining him to see everything on
its darkest side. Dyspepsia, of course, as Dr. North had at the time
assured him. While Colin, because of that same dyspepsia, had counted
himself wiser than any number of doctors, and had refused to believe
the explanation. Now he knew better!
Poor little Eyebright! How she might have worried herself! Only of
course she had not, or she would have written oftener. No doubt she had
not grasped his full meaning. Still, he might have spoilt her visit
with his ill-considered remarks. He would write at once, this very
evening—cheerily, and in a different strain.
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