Adopted children -- Fiction; American fiction -- 19th century; Dime novels
“I want to put my head in your lap just as I used to do,” she said; and,
drawing the stool closer to him, she rested her burning cheek upon his
knee, and then waited for him to speak.
“You have been crying, Milly,” he said at last, and she replied:
“Yes, I’ve had an awful day. Lilian led me into confessing that I loved
somebody, never dreaming that she would tell it to Lawrence; but she
did, and she told him, too, that I said I hated all the Thorntons. Oh,
Oliver, what must he think of me?”
“For loving somebody or hating the Thorntons, which?” Oliver asked, and
Mildred replied:
“Both are bad enough, but I can’t bear to have him think I hate him, for
I don’t. I,—oh, Oliver, can’t you guess? don’t you know?—though why
should you when you have loved only me?”
“Only you, Milly,—only you,” said Oliver, while there came a mist before
his eyes as he thought of the hopeless anguish the loving her had
brought him.
But not for the world would he suffer her to know of the love which had
become a part of his very life, and he was glad that it was growing
dark, so she could not see the whiteness of his face, nor the effort
that it cost him to say in his usually quiet tone:
“Milly, do you love Lawrence Thornton?”
He knew she did, but he would rather she should tell him so, for he
fancied that might help kill the pain which was gnawing at his heart.
“I have never kept anything from you, Oliver,” she said; “and, if you
are willing to be troubled, I want to tell you all about it. Shall I?”
“Yes, tell me,” he replied; and, nestling so close to him that she might
have heard the beating of his heart, Mildred told him of her love, which
was so hopeless because of Lilian Veille.
“I shall never be married,” she said; “and when we are old we will live
together, you and I, and I shall forget that I ever loved anybody better
than you; for I do,—forgive me, Oliver,” and her little, soft, warm hand
crept after the cold, clammy one, which moved farther away as hers
approached, and at last hid itself behind the chair, while Mildred
continued: “I do love him the best, though he has never been to me what
you have. But I can’t help it. You are my brother, you know, and it’s
all so different. I don’t suppose you can understand it, but try to
imagine that you are not lame, nor small, but tall and straight, and
manly as Lawrence Thornton, and that you loved somebody,—me, perhaps.”
“Yes, you—say you, Milly,” and the poor, deformed Oliver felt a thrill
of joy as he thought of himself “tall, and straight, and handsome, and
loving Mildred Howell.”
“And suppose I did not love you in return,” said Mildred, “wouldn’t your
heart ache as it never has ached yet?”
Oliver could have told her of a heartache such as she had never known,
but he dared not, and he was about framing some word of comfort, when
Judge Howell’s voice was heard below, asking if his runaway were there.
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