Although it was but one day that these two had been known to each other,
yet so naturally had Ida seemed drawn towards Miss Ludington, and so
spontaneous had been the outflow of the latter's long-stored tenderness
toward the girl, that they were already like persons who have been bosom
friends and confidants for years.
In this wonderfully rapid growth of a close and tender intimacy, Miss
Ludington exultingly recognized the heart's testimony to the reality of
the mystic tie between them.
So fit and natural had the presence of Ida under her roof already come to
seem, that she found herself half-forgetting, at times, the astounding
and tragic circumstances to which it was due.
Absorbed in the wonder and happiness of her own experience, Miss
Ludington had barely given a thought to Paul during the day. Having been
constantly with Ida she had not, indeed, seen him, save at table, and had
failed to take note of his wobegone appearance. At any other time it
would have aroused her solicitude; but it was not strange that on this
day she should have had no thought save for herself and her other self.
It had, indeed, been a day of strangely mingled emotions for Paul.
Supposing a lover were separated from his mistress, and that the
privilege of being with her, and spending his days in sight of her, were
offered him by some fairy, but only on condition that all memory of him
should be blotted from her mind, and that she should see in him merely a
stranger--is it probable, however great might be the desire of such a
lover to behold his mistress, that he would consent to gratify it on
these terms?
But it was with Paul as if he had done just this. That the sight of his
idol should have fallen to his lot on earth; that he should hear the
sound of her voice, and breathe the same air with her, was, on the one
hand, a felicity so undreamed of, a fortune so amazing, that he sometimes
wondered how he could enjoy it, and still retain his senses.
But when he met her, and she returned his impassioned look with a mere
smile of civil recognition; when he spoke to her, and she answered him in
a tone of conventional politeness--he found it more than he could bear.
The eyes of her picture were kinder than hers. He had, at least, been
able to comfort himself with the belief that, as a spirit, she had known
of his love, and accepted it. Now, by her incarnation, while his eyes had
gained their desire, his heart had lost its consolation.
His condition of mind rapidly became desperate. He could not bear to be
in Ida's presence. Her friendly, formal accent was unendurable to him.
Their blank, unrecognizing expression, as they rested on him in mere
kindliness, made her lovely eyes awful to him as a Gorgon's.
In the early evening he found Miss Ludington alone, and broke out to her:
"For God's sake, can't you help me? I shall go mad if you don't!"
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