Political fiction; Russia -- History -- 1801-1917 -- Fiction; Russia -- Officials and employees -- Fiction
half-naked, covered with bruises, her face was powdered, but she had a
black-eye, blood was trickling from her nose and her teeth; some cabman
had just given her a drubbing. She was sitting on the stone steps, a
salt fish of some sort was in her hand; she was crying, wailing
something about her luck and beating with the fish on the steps, and
cabmen and drunken soldiers were crowding in the doorway taunting her.
You don’t believe that you will ever be like that? I should be sorry to
believe it, too, but how do you know; maybe ten years, eight years ago
that very woman with the salt fish came here fresh as a cherub,
innocent, pure, knowing no evil, blushing at every word. Perhaps she
was like you, proud, ready to take offence, not like the others;
perhaps she looked like a queen, and knew what happiness was in store
for the man who should love her and whom she should love. Do you see
how it ended? And what if at that very minute when she was beating on
the filthy steps with that fish, drunken and dishevelled—what if at
that very minute she recalled the pure early days in her father’s
house, when she used to go to school and the neighbour’s son watched
for her on the way, declaring that he would love her as long as he
lived, that he would devote his life to her, and when they vowed to
love one another for ever and be married as soon as they were grown up!
No, Liza, it would be happy for you if you were to die soon of
consumption in some corner, in some cellar like that woman just now. In
the hospital, do you say? You will be lucky if they take you, but what
if you are still of use to the madam here? Consumption is a queer
disease, it is not like fever. The patient goes on hoping till the last
minute and says he is all right. He deludes himself And that just suits
your madam. Don’t doubt it, that’s how it is; you have sold your soul,
and what is more you owe money, so you daren’t say a word. But when you
are dying, all will abandon you, all will turn away from you, for then
there will be nothing to get from you. What’s more, they will reproach
you for cumbering the place, for being so long over dying. However you
beg you won’t get a drink of water without abuse: ‘Whenever are you
going off, you nasty hussy, you won’t let us sleep with your moaning,
you make the gentlemen sick.’ That’s true, I have heard such things
said myself. They will thrust you dying into the filthiest corner in
the cellar—in the damp and darkness; what will your thoughts be, lying
there alone? When you die, strange hands will lay you out, with
grumbling and impatience; no one will bless you, no one will sigh for
you, they only want to get rid of you as soon as may be; they will buy
a coffin, take you to the grave as they did that poor woman today, and
celebrate your memory at the tavern. In the grave, sleet, filth, wet
snow—no need to put themselves out for you—‘Let her down, Vanuha; it’s
just like her luck—even here, she is head-foremost, the hussy. Shorten
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