American fiction -- 20th century; Manhattan (New York, N.Y.) -- Fiction; Women artists -- Fiction
Thus far the outward expression of their mutual affection had been
conventional. They went to picture exhibitions, the horse-show at the
Garden saw them many times, and also opera and theatre matinées; but,
strictly speaking, they were never alone. He always left her at her
house door. There were no twilit corridors, darkened vestibules, no
sudden corners in entries where they might embrace. He did smuggle
her hand into his at the theatre when the lights were lowered;
during entr'actes they were a well-bred couple. Opportunity, which
is the thief of virtue--sometimes--hadn't appeared on the scene.
Occasionally, when walking after a copious luncheon, she would complain
of enervation and her eyes would swim with mystic languour. He, fearing
that she might think him virtuous, boasted of laborious nights of
vice. She seemed to believe him and secretly applauded his conduct.
No wonder young men can bob up with such smug faces when they call
on nice girls. Oh, yes, they are quite virtuous. No fear of their
misbehaving themselves. Their other "lady" friends have made them
safe--housebroken, she added with a smile over the phrase. I believe
grim law causes more suffering than license. When she communicated this
original idea to Ulick he frankly asked her:
"See here, Mona, do you ever expect to have a child?" "I'm crazy for
one, for two"--and she related the story of Dolly. He was at once
sympathetic, slightly to her surprise. "It reminds me," he said, "of
two French friends of mine. Married, but no children, though they
were much desired. For several years they played at parenthood, they
pretended they had a boy and a girl, very young, very troublesome, but
beloved by them. They played this strange little comedy for several
years. They never went out in the daytime without the "children." They
held long conversations with them. They reproved, praised, admired,
caressed them. At night when they visited the theatre or had a dinner
they left their precious imaginary offspring in the care of an equally
shadowy nurse, burdening her with all manner of instructions. And
now comes the funny part of my story. A real child was born, a few
years later, a second followed, and for all I know they may have
had half a dozen since then. But those children of flesh and blood
were not treated with the same sort of love the dream-children had
received"--"Dream-children?" she repeated her eyes insistently seeking
his, "what a pretty expression. Did you make it up?" "Certainly not.
Haven't you read Charles Lamb's description of his dream-children,
the children he never fathered--only dreamed of?" She didn't thank
him for his explanation, but mused. "I should like to have some
dream-children." "How many, five or six?" "No, two would be enough,
a boy and a girl. I have already a real child, didn't I tell you?" He
pretended to be shocked. "A real baby you have?" "Yes, my Dolly. She's
a troublesome charge. If I could only have two dream-children"--"Who is
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