Oh, I don’t know. How can I--plan it out? I’m going as soon as I can
tell him. All night--all day--I’ve been trying to tell him--and when I
get near him--I run away. _Why did you tell me?_
ABBIE
[_Harshly._] Why did you _know_--what you weren’t to know? But if you
have some way of knowing what you aren’t told--you think you have the
right to do _your_ thing with that? Undo what she did? What _I_ did? Do
you know what it took _out_ of me to do this? There’s nothing left of
me.
MARGARET
[_With a laugh. Right on the verge of being not herself._] No. You’re a
wreck. Another wreck. It’s your Darwinian theory. Your free speech.
ABBIE
Oh, I was afraid of you. I didn’t want you to come. I knew you’d--get
_to_ things.
[_ABBIE goes to the door and looks out._
MARGARET
He is out there?
ABBIE
Yes.
[_MARGARET tries to go; moves just a little._] And you’d go to him
and--what _for_?
MARGARET
Because I can’t _live_--leaving that on him--having him think--when I
know he didn’t. I can’t leave that on him one more hour.
ABBIE
[_Standing in the door to block her going._] And when you take that
from him--_what do you give to him?_
[_They stare at one another; MARGARET falls back._
MARGARET
Don’t ask me to see so many things, Abbie. I can only see this thing.
I’ve grown afraid of seeing.
ABBIE
[_After looking at her, seeing something of her suffering._] Miss
Margaret, why did you do what you did last night? How did you know?
MARGARET
I don’t know.
ABBIE
But you knew.
MARGARET
No. I didn’t _know_. I didn’t know. It didn’t come from me. It
came--from the rightness.
[_A laugh._
ABBIE
If you could get that without being told--why don’t you get more
without being told? [_MARGARET gives her a startled look._] For you
will never be told.
MARGARET
You know _more_?
ABBIE
No. My knowing stops with what you got from me last night. But I knew
her. I thought maybe, as you have some way of knowing what you aren’t
told, you could--see into this. _See._
MARGARET
I’ve lost my seeing. It was through her I saw. It was through Bernice
I could see. And now it’s dark. [_Slowly turning toward the closed
room._] Oh, how still death is.
[_The two women are as if caught into this stillness._
ABBIE
[_Looking from the door._] He turned this way. [_Swiftly turning back
to MARGARET._] But you _couldn’t_ tell him.
MARGARET
No, I can’t. Yes, I must! I tell you there’s something in me can’t
_stand_ it to see any one go down under a thing he shouldn’t have to
bear. Why that feeling has made my life! Do you think I’ve _wanted_ to
do the kind of work I do? Don’t you think I’d like to be doing--happier
things? But there’s something in my blood _drives_ me to--what’s right.
ABBIE
And something in _my_ blood drives me to what’s right! And I went
against it--went against my whole life--so she could rest. I did it
because I loved her. But you didn’t love her.
MARGARET
Oh--Abbie!
ABBIE
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