"He had also a lot of talk about Power, that if he liked he could have
any one in his power, and so could I if I liked. You had only to know
other people's weaknesses enough. And more than that. Some stuff about
its being good for people to suffer. That the thing that made life
interesting and worth while was its intensity, and that life was never
so intense as when we were suffering. That, after all, God liked us to
suffer. Why shouldn't _we_ be gods? We might be if we only had courage
enough.
"It was then, that morning, that it first entered my head that there was
something wrong with him--something wrong with his brain. It had never
occurred to me during all those months because he had always been so
logical, but now--he seemed to step across the little bridge that
separates the sane from the insane. You know how small that bridge is?"
Harkness nodded his head.
"Then all in a moment he took my arm and twisted it. I can't give you
any sort of idea how queer and nasty that was. As he did it he peered
into my face as though he didn't want to miss the slightest shadow of an
expression. Then--I don't know if you noticed when he shook hands with
you--his fingers haven't any bones in them, and yet they are beastly
powerful. He ought to be soft all over and he _isn't._ He twisted my arm
once and smiled. It was all I could do to keep from knocking him down.
But I broke away, told him to go to hell and left the house. From that
moment I hated him.
"It was directly after this that I noticed for the first time that he
had his eye on Hesther, and he had his eye upon her exactly because she
hated him and wouldn't go near him if she could possibly help it. I must
stop for a moment and tell you something about her. You've seen her, but
you cannot have any kind of idea how wonderful she really is.
"She has the most honourable loyal character you've ever seen in woman.
And she's never been in love--she doesn't know what love is. Those are
the two most important things about her. That doesn't mean that she's
ignorant of life. There's nothing mean or sordid or disgusting that
hasn't come into her experience through her beauty of a father, but
she's stood up to it all--until this, this Crispin marriage. The first
thing in her life she's funked.
"She's been saved all along by her devotion to one thing, her
family--her father and two brothers. She must have given her father up
pretty completely by now, seeing that it was hopeless; but her small
brothers--why, they are the key to the whole thing! If it weren't for
them she wouldn't be where she is to-night, and, as I have said, if the
elder one had known anything about it he wouldn't have allowed it, but
he's away on a foreign station and Bobby's too young to understand.
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