Cousins -- Fiction; English fiction -- 19th century; Short stories, English; Villages -- England -- Fiction
“If you are in doubt, play trumps” used to be the rule in whist, and “If
you are in doubt, wear black” would be my advice to a lady in difficulty
about her dress. And Ronald’s wife suggested it.
To-night she was looking her best—in black, and silver and diamonds. She
and Ronald were giving their largest ball of the season, due regularly at
this period of the year, and every family of standing for miles round had
sent its representative. For a wonder I hadn’t been watching her that
evening, and was surprised to feel her gentle touch on my arm.
“Come with me, Fred,” she said, “I want you for a few minutes upstairs.
Poor old nurse is dying. We’ve been expecting it, you know, at any
moment for some weeks past. But I wish it hadn’t come to-night. It
looks so heartless to have all these people about us; and yet I know she
wouldn’t have had the ball put off. She was the last person ever to
think of self. Still it _does_ look unfeeling to go to her straight from
all this light and merriment. Yet I feel it less than most would. Life
and death seem to me so closely mixed, that wherever one is there you may
expect the other.”
“Of course I’ll come. But oughtn’t Ronald to be there too?”
“Yes; but, you see, we cannot both be spared. He must be here to make
excuses for me if I am missed. I don’t want to spoil the pleasure of all
these young things during their one great evening of the year.”
“But you’ll change your dress?” I said aghast.
“No, I think not. If death is always so very near to us, it hardly seems
worth while to change one’s dress to meet him. Besides, I have a special
reason in this case. All her life long dear old nurse has liked to see
me in my ball-room dress, and I’m sure she will to-night. She said it
gave her an idea of what the angels were like better than did her Bible.
And if it could give her one comforting thought to help her, I’d have
dressed on purpose as I am.”
There was little need for Ronald to make excuses for our absence. The
old woman was dying when they called us. But her eyes opened and
brightened as she saw her mistress.
“What! an angel?” she cried. “No, but my own dear mistress, the best
angel of them all, and dressed as I would have her—not yet in her robe of
white—not yet.” And, with her mistress’ face pressed close to hers, and
the diamonds and silver rippling and shimmering about her pillow, our old
nurse died as she would have chosen. Half-an-hour later “Our Queen” was
back in the ball-room: bright, and, to all appearance, cheerful as the
rest. None that saw her would have guessed the scene from which she had
come back to them. “Heartless” they would have said, and will say so
still. But Ronald and I knew better. Her heart was in the nursery up
stairs.
She wears her white robe now. But, in reverence be it written, I would
fain see her come to welcome me, clothed, as she was clothed that night,
in black and silver and diamonds.
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