But _he_ plunges into When I am grown up, I shall debauchery with an marry not you. So that it is irresistible desire, but also not necessary to say he dreamt with fear. The hollowness, of this or that, but he went dirt, and absurdity of to the lame girl and said to immorality astonish him. He her this or that. Of what he gives it all up and after will be and of money. _He beat terrible crimes he denounces her_ _because the money did himself with bitterness. not increase._ He talked to her about the reading of Karamzin, tales, etc. He was taught French and German by the young lady, the old, etc. They went for their lessons to other children (there they made fun of him). Because the lame girl did not flare into a passion for Karamzin—he beat her. He knew the whole Bible—he told her. —The history of the world—but was weak in geography. (Dreams of travels, Kul and He meets Umnov who proves that the lame girl.) They read he knows more than he. Coming novels.—He is highly developed home he tells the lame girl and knows a great deal about that Umnov is a fool and knows many things. He knows Gogol nothing and gave the lame girl and Pushkin. He never pretends a slight beating; after that tenderness for the lame girl he pays great attention to until the time when he carried Umnov. her in his arms.— ――――――――――――――― Do it—cut me off, I don’t want you to study together with my children. —When the old couple used to be very drunk and roll about, the lame girl used to cry over them. At first he beat her, but then ceased. —They killed a goose.— —The Bible. Jacob bowed three times. He gets muddled with the Bible. The lame girl laughs. —The habit of beating her; he did not want to kiss her. (The lame girl was not frozen to death. They found her. But she disappeared from the house of the Alfonskys.) His incessant thinking. From the time he began to remember himself: What shall I be and how shall I do it all? Then doubt: is power alone worth everything and could one not be the slave of all the strongest. He began training his will power. He is stung by passions. --------------