Tell England: A Study in a GenerationRaymond, Ernest
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Tell England: A Study in a Generation
Raymond, Ernest
World War, 1914-1918 -- Fiction
After ten minutes the Second Period began. As our form went to Herr
Reinhardt, the great Mr. Caesar, and he would certainly be late, I
dawdled in my hiding-place, not having the courage to face the boys
in the corridor. I waited till I conjectured that Mr. Caesar must be
safe in his class-room, and the boys in their desks. Then I entered
his room, famous character as I was, and apologised for being late.
Mr. Caesar wrote my name in the Imposition Book, but, having raised
his face and given one look at my swollen, tearful eyes, he
deliberately crossed the name out again. And, indeed, throughout
that period he so consistently refused to see that the boys were
showing detestation of my degrading presence, and was so
inexpressibly gentle in his manner towards me, that now I always
think of this weak-eyed German master as a quiet and Christian
gentleman.
When school-hours were over I went to a window, and there, leaning
on the sill, thought how badly my war was going. Fillet was winning;
he had won when he caned me for asking the number of the sum; he had
won when he gave me the thousand lines; and now he was assaulting in
mass formation with the whole school as his allies. Ah, well! as
Wellington said at Waterloo--it depended who could stand this
pounding longest, gentlemen.
And, as Wellington did, I would charge at the end of the day. One
splendid way of charging, I thought, would be to die immediately.
That would be most effective. How Fillet would prick up his ears on
Monday morning when he heard the Head Master say to the school
assembled in the Great Hall: "Your prayers are asked for your
schoolfellow, Rupert Ray, who is lying at the point of death." And
on Tuesday, when he should say in a shaking voice: "Your
schoolfellow, Ray, died early this morning. His passing was
beautiful; and may my last moments be like his." And then there
would be the Dead March.
Having no one to talk to, I drew out from among the crumbs and
rubbish in my pockets a letter that had arrived from my mother that
morning. My young mother's love for me was always of the extravagant
kind, and the words with which she closed this letter were:
"I do hope you are having a magnificent time and that everybody
is fond of you and nice to you. I must stop now, so good-bye,
my darling little son, and God bless you. With heaps of love
from your ever devoted and affectionate Mother."
It was funny that I had not even noticed those words when I
hurriedly read them in the morning. But now I found them strangely
comforting, strangely satisfying.
A slap on the back awoke me from my reverie. It was Doe.
"Come along, Rupert. I know you didn't do it. Or, if you did, I
don't care. We're twins."
"Go away. You'll get into a dreadful row if you're caught talking to
me."
"I don't care. They won't think any the worse of me, whatever they
do."
"Go away, I tell you. Or, if you don't, I shall have to, and I'm
very comfortable here."
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