Robert frequently took her out to lunch, and the frailty of the natural
man prevailing over the submission of the lover, he had, at an early
date, abandoned the vegetarian restaurant for Prince’s or the Carlton.
Resigning her principles, as a tender concession to Robert’s weakness,
Philippa had become reconciled to six-course meals, and began to hate
plasmon and suspect the efficacy of vegetables as an incentive to
exalted thought.
She began to yearn, like the rich man, to fare sumptuously every day.
Yet what was the use of such a desire as that when not only was she
hard pressed to live at all, but also more deeply in debt than she
cared to own even to herself? In old days, living in the sunshine of
the smiles and the blank cheques of her dearest friends, Philippa had
run up bills with alarming celerity. The “simple” dress was not cheap.
Neither were the ornaments for which she had an unfortunate weakness;
clasps and pendants of enamel and uncut gems of chaste and simple
workmanship--but quite expensive. The bills began to come in with
alarming frequency, and a growing tendency to unpleasant remark. She
grew depressed. Robert, who raged over the injustice of a callous world
which imposed poverty on beauty, constantly implored to be allowed to
lighten the load. Philippa, smiling through her tears, as constantly
refused.
It was she who had at last suggested the secretaryship. Robert had at
first demurred, and seeing this she had pressed the point, had made it
a test of his love for her. In no other way would she take from him so
much as a farthing. He yielded, and under cover of her value to him as
secretary Robert paid her an absurdly generous salary.
But even with Robert to the rescue matters were bad enough. Philippa
fingered disgustedly the last bill she had received, and finally threw
it into the fire. She sat gazing at the flame it made, the furrow
between her eyes deepening as she thought. And in the background there
was something worse. Characteristically she did not face it. She
thought of it hazily, indeed, but it was inexorably there. She had put
a weapon into the hands of a man who, if he used it at all, would not
use it like a gentleman.
A neighboring church clock struck, and she started up. Quarter to
four!--and she was not dressed.
She hastened into her bedroom, which opened out of the studio, and
began to make a hasty toilet. The room was untidy and not very clean,
and if to the garments revealed when the dressing-gown was thrown aside
the same remark applied, it must in justice be remembered that even
perfect cleanliness is dependent upon the amount of living wage. By
the time the downstairs bell rang at a few minutes past four, Philippa
looked like the Blessed Damosel, and Mr. Nevern, as he followed her up
the studio stairs, felt what it was to be on the right side of the gold
bar of heaven.
Public-domain text, read in full here on John Shaqi.
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