Dominic Iglesias drew himself up, sitting very still, his lips rigid,
not from defect, but from excess of sympathy. The restaurant was empty
now, save for a man, four tables down, safely ensconced behind the pink
pages of an evening paper, and for a couple, at the far end, in the
window--a young Frenchwoman, whose coquettish hat and trim rounded
figure were silhouetted against the yellow silk curtain, and a
precocious black-haired youth, with a skin like pale, pink satin, round
eyeglasses and an incipient moustache. His attention was entirely
occupied with the young woman; hers entirely occupied with herself. And
of this Dominic Iglesias was glad. For the matter immediately in hand
was best conducted without witnesses. He found it strangely engrossing,
strangely moving. However vain, however madly exaggerated even, de
Courcy Smyth's estimate of himself, there could be no question but that
his present emotion was as actual and genuine as his past hunger had
been. The man was utterly spent in body and in spirit. Offensive in
speech, slovenly in person, yet these distasteful things added to,
rather than detracted from, Iglesias' going out of sympathy towards
him. He had rarely been in contact with a fellow-creature in such
abandonment of distress. It was terrible to witness; yet it gave him a
sense of fellowship, of nearness, even of power, which had in it an
element of deep-seated satisfaction. While he waited for the moment
when it should become clear to him how to act, his thought travelled
back to the Lady of the Windswept Dust. He saw, not her over-red lips,
but her serious eyes; saw her tearful and in a way broken, for all her
light speech, her fanciful garments, and her antics with her absurd
little dogs amid the sweetness of sunshine and summer breeze on Barnes
Common. She was far enough away, so he judged, in sentiment and
circumstance from the embittered and poverty-haunted man sitting
opposite to him. Yet though superficially so dissimilar, they were
alike in this, that both had dared to reveal themselves, passing beyond
conventional limits in intercourse with him, Iglesias. Both had cried
out to him in their distress. And then, thinking of that recently
visited altar of the dead, thinking of the one perfect relationship he
had known--his relationship to his mother--it came to him as a
revelation that not participation in the pride of life and the
splendour of it--still less association in mere pleasure and
amusement--forms the cement which binds together the units of humanity
in stable and consoling relationship; but association in sorrow, the
cry for help and the response to that cry, whether it be help to the
staying of the hunger of the heart and of the intellect, or simply to
the staying of that baser yet very searching hunger of overstrained
nerves and an empty stomach. The revelation was partial. Iglesias
groped, so to speak, in the light of it uncertain and dazzled. But he
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