England -- Social life and customs -- 19th century -- Fiction; English fiction; Families -- England -- Fiction
In the room where the encounter had taken place Mildred Malloring was
taking her time to recover. From very childhood she had felt that the
essence of her own goodness, the essence of her duty in life, was the
doing of 'good' to others; from very childhood she had never doubted
that she was in a position to do this, and that those to whom she did
good, although they might kick against it as inconvenient, must admit
that it WAS their 'good.' The thought: 'They don't admit that I am
superior!' had never even occurred to her, so completely was she
unselfconscious, in her convinced superiority. It was hard, indeed, to
be flung against such outspoken rudeness. It shook her more than she
gave sign of, for she was not by any means an insensitive woman—shook
her almost to the point of feeling that there was something in the
remonstrance of those dreadful young people. Yet, how could there be,
when no one knew better than she that the laborers on the Malloring
estate were better off than those on nine out of ten estates; better
paid and better housed, and—better looked after in their morals. Was she
to give up that?—when she knew that she WAS better able to tell what was
good for them than they were themselves. After all, without stripping
herself naked of every thought, experience, and action since her birth,
how could she admit that she was not better able? And slowly, in the
white room with the moss-green carpet, she recovered, till there was
only just a touch of soreness left, at the injustice implicit in their
words. Those two had been 'miserably brought up,' had never had a chance
of finding their proper place, of understanding that they were just two
callow young things, for whom Life had some fearful knocks in store. She
could even feel now that she had meant that saying: 'I am sorry for you
two!' She WAS sorry for them, sorry for their want of manners and their
point of view, neither of which they could help, of course, with a
mother like that. For all her gentleness and sensibility, there was much
practical directness about Mildred Malloring; for her, a page turned
was a page turned, an idea absorbed was never disgorged; she was of
religious temperament, ever trimming her course down the exact channel
marked out with buoys by the Port Authorities, and really incapable of
imagining spiritual wants in others that could not be satisfied by what
satisfied herself. And this pathetic strength she had in common with
many of her fellow creatures in every class. Sitting down at the
writing-table from which she had been disturbed, she leaned her thin,
rather long, gentle, but stubborn face on her hand, thinking. These
Gaunts were a source of irritation in the parish, a kind of open sore.
It would be better if they could be got rid of before quarter day, up to
which she had weakly said they might remain. Far better for them to go
at once, if it could be arranged. As for the poor fellow Tryst,
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