Miss Grey did not go out the next day as usual, although it was one of
the soft, amber-gray, autumnal days that she loved, and the Regent's
Park would have looked beautiful. She remained nearly all the morning in
her own room, and avoided even Mary Blanchet. Some singular change had
taken place within her, for which she could not account, otherwise than
by assuming that it was begotten of the fear that she would be drawn,
willingly or unwillingly, into uncongenial companionship, and must
renounce her liberty. She was forced into a strange, painful,
self-questioning mood. Was the whole fabric of her self-appointed
happiness and independence only a dream, or, worse than a dream, an
error? So soon to doubt the value and the virtue of the emancipation she
had prayed for and planned for during years? Not often, perhaps, has a
warm-hearted, fanciful, and spirited girl been pressed down by such
peculiar relationship as hers at Keeton lately; a twice removed
stepfather and stepmother, absolutely uncongenial with her, causing her
soul and her youth to congeal amid dull repression. What wonder that to
her all happiness seemed to consist in mere freedom and unrestricted
self-development? And now--so soon--why does she begin to doubt the
reality, the fulfilment of her happiness? Only because an impulsive and
kindly young man, whom she saw for the first time, looked pityingly at
her. This, she said to herself, is what our self-reliance and our
emancipation come to after all.
It was a positive relief to her, after a futile hour or so of such
questioning, when Mary Blanchet ran up stairs, and with beaming eyes
begged that Minola would come and see her brother. "He is longing to see
you--and you will like him--oh, you will like him, Minola dearest?" she
said beseechingly.
Miss Gray went down stairs straightway, without stopping to give one
touch to her hair, or one glance at the glass. The little poetess was
waiting a moment, with an involuntary look toward the dressing table, as
if Miss Grey must needs have some business there before she descended,
but Miss Grey thought nothing of the kind, and they went down stairs
together.
Minola expected, she could not tell why, to see a small and withered man
in Mary Blanchet's brother. When they were entering the drawing-room, he
was looking out of the window, and had his back turned, and she was
surprised to see that he was decidedly tall. When he turned around she
saw not only that he was handsome, but that she had recognized the fact
of his being handsome before. For he was unmistakably the ideal poet of
schoolgirls whom she had met at Mr. Money's house the day before.
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