It is an outcome of
the new consciousness that I am discovering. But I haven’t worked that
out fully yet. It’s only embryonic.”
He paused. She started when he stopped. She had not been listening to
what he had been saying. She had been arguing with herself. She had
not succeeded in settling with her conscience what she had been
discussing when he stopped. She bit her lip and started. She was
blushing.
“Tell me, Dan,” she whispered, “do you believe in anything? Do you
even believe in Communism? Do you feel pity for the working class?”
Gallagher uttered an exclamation of contempt and shrugged his
shoulders. He panted as he spoke, such was the rapidity of his words,
in an effort to keep pace with the rapidity of his tempestuous
thoughts.
“No,” he said, “I believe in nothing fundamentally. And I don’t feel
pity. Nothing fundamental that has consciousness capable of being
understood by a human being exists, so I don’t believe in anything,
since an intelligent person can only believe in something that is
fundamental. If I could believe in something fundamental, then the
whole superstructure of life would be capable of being comprehended by
me. Life would resolve itself into a period of intense contemplation.
Action would be impossible. There would be no inducement for action.
There would be some definite measurement for explaining everything.
Men seek only that which offers no explanation of itself. But wait a
minute. I haven’t worked out that fully yet. It’s only in the
theoretical stage yet. I have no time.
“But you spoke of pity. Pity? Pity is a ridiculous sensation for a man
of my nature. We are incapable of it. A revolutionary is incapable of
feeling pity. Listen. The philosophy of a revolutionary is this.
Civilization is a process in the development of the human species. I
am an atom of the human species, groping in advance, impelled by a
force over which neither I nor the human species have any control. I
am impelled by the Universal Law to thrust forward the human species
from one phase of its development to another. I am at war with the
remainder of the species. I am a Christ beating them with rods. I have
no mercy. I have no pity. I have no beliefs. I am not master of
myself. I am an automaton. I am a revolutionary. And there is no
reward for me but the satisfaction of one lust, the lust for the
achievement of my mission, for power maybe, but I haven’t worked out
that yet. I am not certain that the lust for power is a true impulse,
a true . . . but listen. That can come later. Can you give me an
answer now? Will you join me?”
“No . . . no, Dan. Stop. Listen.” She gasped, holding him back. “Not
now. Later on I’ll tell you. On a night like this, with death in the
house, how can you talk of . . . ?”
“Why?” he uttered fiercely. “What night would be better suited for you
to join me? Don’t you want to avenge your brother’s death? Don’t you
want . . .”
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