The Land of Darkness: Along with Some Further Chapters in the Experiences of the Little PilgrimOliphant, Mrs. (Margaret)
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The Land of Darkness: Along with Some Further Chapters in the Experiences of the Little Pilgrim
Oliphant, Mrs. (Margaret)
Future life -- Fiction; Purgatory -- Fiction
‘Yet pleasure requires it,’ I said, ‘as much as----’ I was about to say
pain; but why should one speak of pain in a place given up to pleasure?
She smiled faintly and shook her head again. All her movements were
languid and faint; her eyelids drooped over her eyes. Yet, when I
turned to her, she made an effort to smile. ‘I think you are also
tired,’ I said.
At this she roused herself a little. ‘We must not say so: nor do I say
so. Pleasure is very exacting. It demands more of you than anything
else. One must be always ready----’
‘For what?’
‘To give enjoyment, and to receive it.’ There was an effort in her voice
to rise to this sentiment, but it fell back into weariness again.
‘I hope you receive as well as give,’ I said.
The lady turned her eyes to me with a look which I cannot forget, and
life seemed once more to be roused within her. But not the life of
pleasure: her eyes were full of loathing, and fatigue, and disgust, and
despair. ‘Are you so new to this place,’ she said, ‘and have not learned
even yet what is the height of all misery and all weariness: what is
worse than pain and trouble, more dreadful than the lawless streets and
the burning mines, and the torture of the great hall and the misery of
the lazar-house----’
‘Oh, lady,’ I said, ‘have you been there?’
She answered me with her eyes alone; there was no need of more. ‘But
pleasure is more terrible than all,’ she said; and I knew in my heart
that what she said was true.
There is no record of time in that place. I could not count it by days
or nights: but soon after this it happened to me that the dances and the
music became no more than a dizzy maze of sound and sight, which made my
brain whirl round and round; and I too loathed what was spread on the
table, and the soft couches, and the garlands, and the fluttering flags
and ornaments. To sit for ever at a feast, to see for ever the
merry-makers turn round and round, to hear in your ears for ever the
whirl of the music, the laughter, the cries of pleasure! There were some
who went on and on, and never seemed to tire; but to me the endless
round came at last to be a torture from which I could not escape.
Finally, I could distinguish nothing--neither what I heard nor what I
saw: and only a consciousness of something intolerable buzzed and echoed
in my brain. I longed for the quiet of the place I had left; I longed
for the noise in the streets, and the hubbub and tumult of my first
experiences. Anything, anything rather than this! I said to myself; and
still the dancers turned, the music sounded, the bystanders smiled, and
everything went on and on. My eyes grew weary with seeing, and my ears
with hearing. To watch the new-comers rush in, all pleased and eager, to
see the eyes of the others glaze with weariness, wrought upon my
strained nerves. I could not think, I could not rest, I could not
endure. Music for ever and ever--a whirl, a rush of music, always going
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