Thinking of these things she fell into a doze, only to be pursued by
vague images of her waking thoughts. Then, just before fully
awakening, she saw, as in a camera-obscura, the face of Applebo
regarding her with a lazy, ironical smile. This was not fancy, but
an actual vision, which faded slowly as she awoke.
"Bother the man!" cried Cécile, fiercely to herself. "One would
think that I were an ingenue of eighteen, haunted by visions of my
first beau!"
Many men had called Cécile cold, unfeeling, heartless ... all of
which terms were, from the man's point of view, quite correct. From
Cécile's, they were wrong. As she saw it, love was a game in which
one must realise, just as in football, the possibility of getting
hurt. A coward or cry-baby had no right to play it. If any man
could hurt her, as she was said to have hurt others, he was quite at
liberty to go ahead and do it. It was, perhaps, in the hunt for the
person who could do this that she had ruthlessly vivisected so many
hearts. Cécile felt instinctively that she possessed no lack of deep
feeling, if the right man were to claim it.
But Cécile knew quite well that she was not "in love at first sight."
She was momentarily fascinated, perhaps, but mingled with her
sentiment there was not the least trace of sympathetic or tender
interest. On the contrary, the thought of Applebo exasperated her.
She felt that she would like to wake him out of his lethargy with a
hat-pin or the butt-end of an oar. Something in his sleek, smooth
complacency aroused the desire to do him a damage.
Tired at length of the changeless object of her fancy, she tried to
put it from her mind, but in vain. Then, finding herself unable to
stem the tide of her imaginings, she tried drifting with them, to
arrive ultimately at the startling knowledge that she was quite wild
to see the poet again. She was also forced to admit, for however
much she might deceive others Cécile was always candid with herself,
that, were he to exert his magnetic potentialities toward that end,
it was very possible that she might wind up by falling very
desperately in love with Mr. Harold Applebo.
Hardly had she arrived at this rather humiliating conclusion when the
maid entered, handed her a note, and went out again. The post-mark
was a local one, and the handwriting of the copy-plate regularity
which one associates with bills. Nevertheless, Cécile's heart beat
with a sudden increased force as she tore open the letter. Inside
was a single sheet of corn-coloured note-paper covered by a fine
regular calligraphy, which Cécile recognised at a glance as being
identical with that in which some of Hermione's letters had been
addressed. She held it to the waning light from her port-hole, and
read as follows:--
TO CÉCILE
_Lips oft sing loudest when the heart is numb;
'Tis when Love enters there, though all unseen,
These scarlet courtiers, bowing to their Queen,
Knowing their hollowness, are stricken dumb._
Public-domain text, read in full here on John Shaqi.
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