England -- Social life and customs -- 19th century -- Fiction
"I know," said Katharine, rousing herself and looking penitent. "I am
so sorry! I am made that way, I think. It used to annoy Ted. I think
it is because I never had any fun at home, or any one to play with,
except Ted. And then I began to earn my living, and so I never had
time to be frivolous at all. I suppose I am too old to begin, now."
"Much too old," smiled Paul.
A knock came at the outer door. Paul put her away from him almost
roughly, and glanced with a disturbed look round the room.
"You had better stay here," he said shortly, "and keep quiet till I
come back."
"Who is it?" asked Katharine, in some bewilderment.
"I don't know. You don't understand," was all he said; and he went out
and spoke for a few minutes to a man on the landing.
"It was about a brief," he said on his return. He still frowned a
little, and she felt, regretfully, that his genial mood had fled.
"Was that all? Wouldn't he come in?" she asked.
Paul looked at her incredulously.
"It wasn't likely that I should ask him," he said, turning his back to
her, and rummaging among the papers on his desk. The colour came into
her face, and she was conscious of having said something tactless,
without exactly knowing what.
"Shall I go away again?" she asked slowly. The joy seemed suddenly to
have been taken out of her half-term holiday.
"You see, it is not for myself that I mind," he tried to explain
quietly; "but if you were to be seen in here alone, it would do for
your reputation at once, don't you see?"
Katharine looked as though she did not see.
"But, surely, there is no harm in my coming here?" she protested.
"Of course not; no harm at all. It isn't that," said Paul hastily.
"Then," said Katharine, "if there is no harm in it, why should I not
come? It is all rubbish, isn't it? I won't come any more if it bothers
you; but that is another matter."
"My dear child, do be reasonable! It is not a question of my feelings
at all. I like you to come, but I don't want other people to know that
you do, because of what they might say. It is for your sake entirely
that I wish you to be careful. That is why I don't come to see you at
your place. Do you see now?"
Katharine shook her head.
"It is either wrong, or it isn't wrong," she said obstinately. "I
never dreamed that there could be any harm in my coming to see you, or
I should not have come. And it was so pleasant, and you have always
been so nice to me. Why did you not tell me before? I don't see how it
can be wrong, and yet it can't be right, if I have got to pretend to
other people that I don't come. I hate hiding things; I don't like the
feel of it. I wish I could understand what you mean."
"It is quite easy to understand," said Paul, beginning to realise that
his case, as stated baldly by Katharine, was a very lame one. "It is
not wrong, as far as you and I are concerned; but it is a hell of a
world, and people will talk."
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