China -- Fiction; Communism -- Fiction; Women peasants -- Fiction
But the mother was far from sleep. She went softly into the darkened,
silent room, and she sat herself upon the bed and the blood thundered
in her ears, the blood of her strong hungry body. Now she knew what was
amiss with her. She pretended nothing to herself now, as a townswoman
might pretend, that there was some illness she had. No, she was too
simple to pretend when well she knew how it was with her, and she was
more frightened than she had ever been in her whole life, for she knew
that such hunger as was in her now grew raving if it were not fed....
She did not even dream she could repulse him, now she knew her own
hunger was the same as his, and she groaned aloud and cried to her
heart, “It would be better if he would not have me--Oh, I wish he would
not have me, and that I might be saved!”
But even while she groaned she rose driven from off that bed and went
from the sleeping hamlet and to the fields along the way that she had
come. She walked along under the great, black, bright-edged clouds and
about her were the hills, livid green and clean against the blackness.
She went under such a sky, along the little winding turn the path took
where it turned past a small and ruined shrine, and there in the door
of the shrine the man stood, waiting.
And she could not pass him. No, when he went inside and waited she
followed to the door and looked and there he stood inside the twilight
of the windowless shrine, waiting, and his eyes gleamed out of that
twilight, shining as a beast’s eyes, waiting, and she went in.
They looked at each other in the dim light, two people in a dream,
desperate, beyond any power now to stay, and they made ready for what
they must do.
Yet did the woman stop once, too. She looked up from her dream and she
saw the three gods in the shrine, the chief a staid old man staring
straight ahead of him, and by his side two small attendants, little,
decent gods of the wayside for those who paused in their journey for
worship or for shelter. She took the garment she had laid aside and
went and threw it on their heads and covered up their staring eyes.
XI
In the night of that same day the wind rose suddenly as a tiger’s roar
out of the distant hills, and it blew the clouds down out of the sky
where they had hung heavy and full of rain, their light long gone. And
the sudden rains poured and washed the heats out of that day. When at
last the mist was gone, the dawn, pure and cool, grew quiet and fell
from a gray and tranquil sky.
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