And I walked as if apart From myself, when I could stand, And I pitied my own heart, As if I held it in my hand-- Somewhat coldly, with a sense Of fulfilled benevolence, And a "Poor thing" negligence. XXII. And I answered coldly too, When you met me at the door; And I only _heard_ the dew Dripping from me to the floor: And the flowers, I bade you see, Were too withered for the bee,-- As my life, henceforth, for me. XXIII. Do not weep so--Dear,--heart-warm! All was best as it befell. If I say he did me harm, I speak wild,--I am not well. All his words were kind and good-- _He esteemed me._ Only, blood Runs so faint in womanhood! XXIV. Then I always was too grave,-- Liked the saddest ballad sung,-- With that look, besides, we have In our faces, who die young. I had died, Dear, all the same; Life's long, joyous, jostling game Is too loud for my meek shame. XXV. We are so unlike each other, Thou and I, that none could guess We were children of one mother, But for mutual tenderness. Thou art rose-lined from the cold, And meant verily to hold Life's pure pleasures manifold. XXVI. I am pale as crocus grows Close beside a rose-tree's root; Whosoe'er would reach the rose, Treads the crocus underfoot. _I_, like May-bloom on thorn-tree, Thou, like merry summer-bee,-- Fit that I be plucked for thee! XXVII. Yet who plucks me?--no one mourns, I have lived my season out, And now die of my own thorns Which I could not live without. Sweet, be merry! How the light Comes and goes! If it be night, Keep the candles in my sight. XXVIII. Are there footsteps at the door? Look out quickly. Yea, or nay? Some one might be waiting for Some last word that I might say. Nay? So best!--so angels would Stand off clear from deathly road, Not to cross the sight of God. XXIX. Colder grow my hands and feet. When I wear the shroud I made, Let the folds lie straight and neat, And the rosemary be spread, That if any friend should come, (To see _thee_, Sweet!) all the room May be lifted out of gloom. XXX. And, dear Bertha, let me keep On my hand this little ring, Which at nights, when others sleep, I can still see glittering! Let me wear it out of sight, In the grave,--where it will light All the dark up, day and night. XXXI. On that grave drop not a tear! Else, though fathom-deep the place, Through the woollen shroud I wear I shall feel it on my face. Rather smile there, blessèd one, Thinking of me in the sun, Or forget me--smiling on! XXXII.