Christian fiction; Neighborhoods -- Scotland -- Fiction
"It comes to me," said Connie, "like forgiveness when I was a little
girl and was naughty. I used to feel just like that."
"It is the same kind of thing I feel," I said--"as if life from the
Spirit of God were coming into my soul: I think of the wind that
bloweth where it listeth. Wind and spirit are the same word in the
Greek; and the Latin word _spirit_ comes even nearer to what we are
saying, for it is the wind as _breathed_. And now, Connie, I will tell
you--and you will see how I am growing able to talk to you like quite
an old friend--what put me in such a delight with Mr. Shepherd's letter
and so exposed me to be teased by mamma and you. As I read it, there
rose up before me a vision of one sight of the sea which I had when I
was a young man, long before I saw your mamma. I had gone out for a
walk along some high downs. But I ought to tell you that I had been
working rather hard at Cambridge, and the life seemed to be all gone
out of me. Though my holidays had come, they did not feel quite like
holidays--not as holidays used to feel when I was a boy. Even when
walking along those downs with the scents of sixteen grasses or so in
my brain, like a melody with the odour of the earth for the
accompaniment upon which it floated, and with just enough of wind to
stir them up and set them in motion, I could not feel at all. I
remembered something of what I had used to feel in such places, but
instead of believing in that, I doubted now whether it had not been all
a trick that I played myself--a fancied pleasure only. I was walking
along, then, with the sea behind me. It was a warm, cloudy day--I had
had no sunshine since I came out. All at once I turned--I don't know
why. There lay the gray sea, but not as I had seen it last, not all
gray. It was dotted, spotted, and splashed all over with drops, pools,
and lakes of light, of all shades of depth, from a light shimmer of
tremulous gray, through a half light that turned the prevailing lead
colour into translucent green that seemed to grow out of its
depths--through this, I say, to brilliant light, deepening and
deepening till my very soul was stung by the triumph of the intensity
of its molten silver. There was no sun upon me. But there were breaks
in the clouds over the sea, through which, the air being filled with
vapour, I could see the long lines of the sun-rays descending on the
waters like rain--so like a rain of light that the water seemed to
plash up in light under their fall. I questioned the past no more; the
present seized upon me, and I knew that the past was true, and that
nature was more lovely, more awful in her loveliness than I could
grasp. It was a lonely place: I fell on my knees, and worshipped the
God that made the glory and my soul."
While I spoke Connie's tears had been flowing quietly.
"And mamma and I were making fun while you were seeing such things as
those!" she said pitifully.
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