‘One has wrestled through loves of different kinds,’ said Kingston,
securely continuing his soliloquy, ‘and it is certainly a blessed
surprise to find that the real thing is placid and satisfying. The
hunger and thirst of passion are fierce and dreadful--it never seemed
likely that perfect happiness could be found in the mere appeasing of
them. I am sure I much prefer the lasting, tranquil completeness of an
emotion to the feverish clamour of an appetite. And that, after all,
is what most people seem to mean by love. I have always rather hated
violence and brutal manifestations. They seem a little vulgar, very
crude and indecent, very unworthy of our higher emotional powers.’
‘My boy is so full of nice feeling,’ said Lady Adela; ‘violence is a
terrible thing. I remember I once saw a dog run over by a tram. I have
never forgotten it.’
‘One feels a certain something solid and eternal about real love,’ went
on her son, contentedly talking to himself aloud under pretence of
addressing his mother. ‘It is a huge level tract of feeling, stretching
out into the immensities, without anything to break the enormous
flat surface of it. It goes on for ever and ever, without valleys or
pinnacles, or rough places of any kind. And surely that is better
than perpetually scrambling up peaks and falling off them again, into
abysses. Real love is not a mountain track; it is a solid turnpike road
with a smooth, sound surface. One’s life jogs along it imperceptibly,
and one’s attention need not be kept fixed on the driving to see where
one is going. With Gundred I feel that I am with someone whom I have
known for ages in the past, and whom I shall continue to know for ages
in the future, without jars or disconnections. There is something
monumental, something filling about the sensation. People who find the
hot rough-and-tumble pandemian love enough for them would think the
real heavenly feeling stodgy and perhaps--well, perhaps even a little
dull. It does lack diversity somehow. It offers repletion without
any sauces to appetise. But, then, I suppose the immensities must of
necessity seem monotonous to our small, jigging intelligences.’
‘I am sure, Kingston,’ said Lady Adela with conviction, ‘that no one
could have a better intelligence than you. It is quite something to be
thankful for.’
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