Female friendship -- Fiction; London (England) -- Fiction
But could it be the same with this treasured only son, who was
doubtless destined for a high place in the world by doting parents, and
other proud bearers of the same old name? Of course he might sup and
trifle with certain denizens of the theatrical world galore; it would
only be part of his education, and a thing to wink at, but she already
doubted whether such a slight companionship would have any attraction.
In spite of his youthfulness, there was something in him that would
naturally and quickly respond to the fine shades in herself, and grow
into a friendship that had no part with the casual, gay
acquaintanceships of the theatre and the world.
In a sense he was like Hal, and she knew that just as she attracted
Hal’s devotion in spite of all disparity of years and circumstances,
so, if she chose, she could make this young giant more or less her
slave.
But was it worht it?
What did she, on her high pedestal, want with his young admiration?
What did she want with a companion so undeveloped that she herself must
awaken his strongest forces?
Through the gloom, unheeding the shaft of sunlight, she saw him again,
towering up there on her hearth, with his young splendour, so
extraordinarily unspoilt as yet; and she knew that, reasonable or
unreasonable, she was attracted far beyond her wont.
And then she thought of his easy-going temperament, his lack of
ambition, his half-sleepy attitude towards life.
What if the wheels ran so smoothly for him that the latent forces were
never aroused, and little achieved of all that might be?
If love came at his asking, and a sufficiency of success to satisfy an
easy-going nature, what would there ever be to stir depths which she
truly believed were worth stiring? Was it so small a thing to help a
fine soul forward to its best attainment?... was such an aim not worth
some going aside for both?
She felt there were things she could teach him, which without her he
might entirely miss; and if without her he were the better according to
a conventional standard, he might yet be far the poorer in the big,
deep things of life.
Well, no doubt circumstances would end by suiting themselves, with or
without her agency. In the meantime why worry, in a world that it would
seem worked out its own ends, sublimely indifferent to the individual?
They were going to dine together tonight anyhow; their first
tête-à-tête dinner and evening: time enough to probe and worry when she
was more sure a mutual attraction existed; wiser at present to seek a
counter attraction for her own sake, that she might not uselessly build
a castle without foundations.
Prompt as ever, she reached out for the receiver beside her bed and
rang up the Albany to know if Lord Denton were awake yet.
“I’m not awake,” came back a sleepy answer. “I am asleep, and dreaming
of Lorraine Vivian. If my man wakes me now, I shall curse him solidly
for half an hour.”
Public-domain text, read in full here on John Shaqi.
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