A Bird of Passage, and Other StoriesHarraden, Beatrice
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A Bird of Passage, and Other Stories
Harraden, Beatrice
English fiction -- 19th century; Short stories, English
"I have nothing to tell you about myself," she answered frankly. "I am
alone in the world, without friends and without relations. The very name
I use is not a real name. I was a foundling. At times I am sorry I do
not belong to any one, and at other times I am glad there is no one whom
I might possibly vex and disappoint. You know I am fond of books and of
art, so my life is not altogether empty, and I find my pleasure in hard
work. When I saw you at the gallery I wished to know you, and I asked
one of the students who you were. He told me you were a misanthrope,
and I was sorry, because I believed that humanity ought to be helped and
loved, not despised. Then I did not care so much about knowing you,
until one day you spoke to me about my painting, and that was the
beginning of our friendship."
"Forty years ago," he said sadly, "the friend of my boyhood deceived me.
I had not thought it possible that he could be false to me. He screened
himself behind me, and became prosperous and respected at the expense of
my honor. I vowed I would never again make a friend. A few years
later, when I was beginning to hold up my head, the woman whom I loved
deceived me. Then I put from me all affection and all love. Greater
natures than mine are better able to bear these troubles, but my heart
contracted and withered up."
He paused for a moment, many recollections overpowering him. Then he
went on telling her the history of his life, unfolding to her the story
of his hopes and ambitions, describing to her the very home where he was
born, and the dark-eyed sister whom he had loved, and with whom he had
played over the daisied fields and through the carpeted woods, and all
among the richly tinted bracken. One day he was told she was dead, and
that he must never speak her name; but he spoke it all the day and all
the night--Beryl, nothing but Beryl; and he looked for her in the fields
and in the woods and among the bracken. It seemed as if he had unlocked
the casket of his heart, closed for so many years, and as if all the
memories of the past and all the secrets of his life were rushing out,
glad to be free once more, and grateful for the open air of sympathy.
"Beryl was as swift as a deer," he exclaimed. "You would have laughed
to see her on the moor. Ah, it was hard to give up all thoughts of
meeting her again. They told me I should see her in heaven, but I did
not care about heaven. I wanted Beryl on earth, as I knew her, a merry,
laughing sister. I think you are right; we don’t forget, we become
resigned in a dead, dull kind of way."
Suddenly he said: "I don’t know why I have told you all this. And yet
it has been such a pleasure to me. You are the only person to whom I
could have spoken about myself, for no one else but you would have
cared."
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