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A girl's life eighty years ago : $b Selections from the letters of Eliza Southgate Bowne
Bowne, Eliza Southgate
Bowne, Eliza Southgate, 1783-1809; United States -- Social life and customs -- 1783-1865
sleigh, yet every gentleman does the same,—all have a favorite, some for
a month, some a little longer. It seems like making you a confidant to
talk thus, but I say many things which would appear ridiculous if
communicated to a third person, and I know you would have too much
delicacy to communicate any thing which might hurt my feelings. I have
heard all these stories before, yet I must act and judge for myself. I
know better than any other person can, how far they are true, and I
candidly confess that he never said a word to me which I could possibly
construe into a declaration of love, not the most faint or distant. Then
think for a moment how ridiculous it would be for me to alter my conduct
towards him! No! while he treats me as a friend, I shall treat him as
such; and let the world say what they will, I will endeavor to act in a
manner that my conscience will justify,—to steer between the rocks of
prudery and coquetry, and take my own sense of propriety as a pilot that
will conduct me safe. I should not have been thus particular, but I felt
unwilling that you should be led into error that I could easily remove
from your mind; it would seem like giving a silent assent, as I confess
to write as I think to you, and to speak openly on all occasions, I felt
that I ought to say more to you on this affair than I ever have to any
other. Let the world still have it as they will. I confess it would be
more pleasing to me if my name was not so much[21] ... what Johnson says
of an author may apply ... is much known in the world. That his name
like ... must be beat backward and forward as it falls to the ground. I
recollect in a former letter you asked why I did not say more of
particular characters, and among my acquaintance select some and give
you a few characteristic sketches. The truth is—I felt afraid to, I did
not know but you might mention many things which would make me enemies.
I am always willing to speak my opinion without reserve on any
character, because I should take care that I spoke it before those who
would not abuse the frankness; but letters may be miscarried, may fall
into hands we know not of,—but I never think of these, or I am sure I
should burn this in a moment,—another thing that it requires a quiet
discernment, a correct judgment and a thorough knowledge of the world,
of human nature, to form a just character of any one that we are not
intimately acquainted with. However, we all of us form an opinion of
every person we see, and whatever I shall say and have said you must
recollect is only the opinion of one who is oftener wrong than right,
and you can form no correct idea of my character from what I say.
Scarborough, March, Sunday.
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