“That is how I feel myself, just how I feel. I have no interest in women
at all. Only my poor old mammy, my old black mammy, she was of the very
best, the very best she was. A mother is the best friend you have
through life--the best friend you can make. My mother was ignorant, she
could not read, neither could she write, but she knew almost all of the
whole Bible by heart, and I first learnt of Salvation from my mother’s
lips. When I was five years old she taught me the Holy Words of Glory,
and I repeated them after her text by text. She was the best friend I
shall ever have.
“But other women--no, sir. I have no use for them. They are just a
temptation in a man’s life, a temptation to make him forget his true
manhood. And the worst of it is that the more you shun them the more
they do run after you. That’s a fact.
“No, I am very much safer and better off here shut up alongside of you,
with this wire netting and bars to fence off the women, and I guess you
feel the same way as I do. Don’t you, Mr. Cromartie?” Cromartie suddenly
looked up and saw the person who had been addressing him.
“Who are you?” he asked, and then, looking rather wildly, he walked out
of his cage into his back room, where he lay down feeling very
exhausted.
He was still very weak from his illness, and the close atmosphere of the
Ape-house gave him a headache. Every moment he had now to exercise
self-control, and it was more and more exhausting for him to do so. Very
often he did what he did on this occasion, and this was to lie down to
rest in his back room and then burst into tears, quite without any
restraint, and though he laughed at himself afterwards, the act of
weeping comforted him, although it left him weaker than before and more
inclined to weep again.
But the pricks and troubles of the outside world meant very little to
Mr. Cromartie just then. He could not help thinking the whole time of
Josephine.
For so long he had believed that there were so many insuperable
obstacles which would prevent them ever being happy together, that the
additional fact of his being shut up in the Zoo was a relief to him.
But now that he felt so weak it was an extra strain, and especially now
as he was beginning to wonder if Josephine and he could not be happy
together for a little while.
He still knew that they were too proud to endure each other for very
long, but could they not have a week or a month or even a year of
happiness together?
Perhaps they might, but anyhow it wasn’t possible, and here he was
locked up in a cage, with a nigger waiting outside to talk some
disgusting trash at him and wear out his patience.
But as a matter of fact, when Cromartie pulled himself together once
more and went out into his cage Joe Tennison did not address him--that
is, not directly. But he was as tiresome as he had been before, but now
it was in a different way.
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