"I'm a fool. Here am I, getting married at an age when wise men begin
unmarrying. Bah! In spite of everything, I'm still tough and I can
still tame a woman."
He recalled, with pride, his last rendezvous with Gratienne; he had
conquered her, annihilated her, reduced her to a pulp, and himself,
strutting like a cock, had crowed over his happy victim.
"Besides, with Rose, I shall be master. I shall be for her the Man and
men in general.... By the way, why hasn't Gratienne written to me since
I've been here? Of course, I never gave her my address."
That had been the right thing, he first thought; then he reproached
himself for it, felt almost remorseful. He hastily concocted a quite
affectionate letter, asking for news. There was a letter-box not far
away, on the St. Martin road; he went quickly downstairs and ran there
with his missive.
On his return he found Rose in the garden. Since their engagement she
had been living in a perpetual smile. She entered naïvely into her
destiny, suspecting no further possible obstacle to her happiness. At
the same time, by what must have been instinctive coquetry, she had
become, not more reserved, but less prompt at their habitual sports.
She spoke a great deal of her future house, picturing to herself
their drawing-room furniture, which she pictured from the illustrated
catalogues, and the colour of their carpets and curtains. The idea
of this furniture horrified M. Hervart, who had a taste for antiques
and happy discoveries, which he mixed, without shame, with practical
constructions made under his own directions. To-day he found it more
difficult than usual to tolerate this housewifely chatter. He was bored.
"Can it be," he wondered, "that I feel nothing but a wholly carnal
love for her? What's the use of marrying, if I can't see in her the
wife, the mother, the lady of the house as well as the mistress? In
that case Gratienne is quite enough for me. Marriage is delightful when
one is fresh from school. One finds the happiest establishments among
students. They live on one another, in one another. Promiscuity seems
an enchantment. One makes one's first acquaintance with the opposite
sex; one completes oneself. Later on, all this intimacy is no longer
possible; and later still, one is very well content with mere amorous
visitations while one awaits the moment when solitude brings the only
instants of appreciable happiness."
M. Hervart brought his meditations to no conclusions, and so the
morning passed--Rose choosing imaginary wallpapers and Xavier
philosophising in secret on the unpleasantnesses of marriage.
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