Poetry -- 20th century -- Periodicals; Short stories -- Periodicals
At first I could make nothing of this remark. But as he drew nearer and
nearer, and his ugly mood became more and more apparent, I felt that
he was looking forward to provoking me into giving him a distraction
from whatever was tormenting him. I waited. A few minutes and we were
face to face, I outwardly calm, but my anger slowly lighting up as
he deliberately applied to it the torch of his insolent eyes. He was
wearing his old familiar air of cynical assurance. Evidently, with
his recovered fortune, he had recovered his conviction of his great
superiority to the rest of the human race--the child had climbed back
on the chair that made it tall and had forgotten its tumble. And I was
wondering again that I, so short a time before, had been crude enough
to be fascinated and fooled by those tawdry posings and pretenses. For
the man, as I now saw him, was obviously shallow and vain, a slave to
those poor “man-of-the-world” passions--ostentation, and cynicism,
and skill at vices old as mankind and tedious as a treadmill, the
commonplace routine of the idle and foolish and purposeless. A clever,
handsome fellow, but the more pitiful that he was by nature above the
uses to which he prostituted himself.
He fought hard to keep his eyes steadily on mine; but they would waver
and shift. Not, however, before I had found deep down in them the
beginnings of fear. “You see, you were mistaken,” said I. “You have
nothing to say to me--or I to you.”
He knew I had looked straight to the bottom of his real self, had seen
the coward that is in every man who has been bred to appearances only.
Up rose his vanity, the coward’s substitute for courage. “You think I
am afraid of you?” he sneered, bluffing and blustering like the school
bully.
“I don’t in the least care whether you are or not,” replied I. “What
are you doing here, anyhow?”
It was as if I had thrown off the cover of a furnace. “I came to get
the woman I love,” he cried. “You stole her from me. You tricked me.
But, by God, Blacklock, I’ll never pause until I get her back and
punish you.” He was brave enough now, drunk with the fumes from his
brave words. “All my life,” he raged arrogantly on, “I’ve had whatever
I wanted. I’ve let nothing interfere--nothing and nobody. I’ve been too
forbearing with you--first because I knew she could never care for you,
and then because I rather admired your pluck and impudence. I like to
see fellows kick their way up among us from the common people.”
Public-domain text, read in full here on John Shaqi.
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