An open verdict : $b a novel, volume 1 (of 3)Braddon, M. E. (Mary Elizabeth)
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An open verdict : $b a novel, volume 1 (of 3)
Braddon, M. E. (Mary Elizabeth)
English fiction -- 19th century
‘Yes, my dear, I know what an excellent daughter you are. A good
daughter will always make a good wife. But in a large family like yours
the sooner a girl marries the better. Let me see, now, how many sisters
have you?’
‘Four.’
‘Four! good gracious! Five girls in one family! That’s quite dreadful!
I can’t see where five husbands are to come from. Not out of Little
Yafford, I am afraid.’
‘But, dear Mrs. Dulcimer, we are not all obliged to marry.’
‘My poor child, what else are you to do? There is nothing between that
and being governesses.’
‘Then we must all be governesses. I had rather be a tolerably contented
governess than a miserable wife.’
‘But you might be a very happy wife--if you marry the man who loves
you.’
Bella blushed again, and this time more deeply. Did Mrs. Dulcimer know
or suspect anything? Bella’s heart thrilled strangely. To be loved, how
sweet it sounded! To have her life all at once transformed to something
new and strange, lifted out of this dull level of poverty-stricken
monotony, in which it had crept on for all the years she could remember!
‘I must wait till the true lover appears, Mrs. Dulcimer,’ she answered
quietly, though the beating of her heart had quickened. ‘I have never
met him yet.’
‘Haven’t you, Bella? You may have met him without knowing it. I have an
idea that Cyril Culverhouse is very fond of you.’
Now if Bella had heard Mrs. Dulcimer express such an idea in relation
to any one but herself, she would have given the notion exactly its
just value, which would have been nothing--for it was Mrs. Dulcimer’s
peculiar faculty to evolve ideas of this kind from her inner
consciousness--but, applied to herself, the notion had a startling
effect upon Bella’s nerves and brain.
Could it be? Cyril--her ideal preacher--the man whose earnest eyes
had made her tremble strangely, at odd times, when her own eyes met
them suddenly. Cyril, the only being who had ever made her feel the
littleness of her own views and aspirations, and that, despite all
her gifts, she was a very poor creature. That Cyril could care for
her--value her--love her--it was too bright a dream! She forgot that he
was little better off than herself--that he could do nothing to lift
her out of her dull life of aching poverty. She forgot everything,
except that it would be the sweetest thing in the world to be loved by
him.
‘Indeed, Mrs. Dulcimer, you must be mistaken’, she said, her voice
trembling a little. ‘Mr. Culverhouse has not given me a thought--he has
never said one word that----’
‘My dear, he is too honourable to say anything until he felt himself in
a position to speak plainly, and that would hardly be till he has got a
living. But the Church will not be such slow work for him as it is for
most young men, you may depend. He has great gifts.’
‘He has indeed,’ sighed Bella.
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