"In one or other department of life a man must have success, if he is to
know content. Work counts for a lot, but it must be successful work to
make up a whole. A big career appeals to all men--the sense of power,
the consciousness that one particular bit of the world's work depends
upon him, and would suffer from his absence, but that sort of success
hasn't come my way. It's the jolliest regiment in the world, the best
set of fellows, but it's been our luck to be `out of things,' and we are
hopelessly blocked.
"Then there's the home department! Middleton (I use him as a type) can
never ask himself `what is the good,' while he has his wife and that
stunning little lad. He has his depressed moods like the rest, but when
they come on, Dorothea makes love to him, and the little chap sits on
his knee. At such times any nice feeling young photograph ought to
sympathise with a lonely fellow who sits by and--looks on!
"What do you suppose made up my last Christmas mail? A bill from the
stores, and a picture postcard from an old nurse. This year there'll be
a letter from you! I have theories about Christmas letters--especially
Christmas letters to fellows abroad. Christmas is a time of special
kindliness and love; people who are as a rule most reserved and
dignified let themselves go, and show what is in their hearts. I've a
fancy just for once to `pittend' as the children say, and write a real
Christmassy letter. A fellow in the regiment--Vincent--is just engaged.
He met her when he went to S--for his last leave. Prom his
descriptions you would imagine she was another Helen of Troy, but I'm
told she's quite an ordinary nice girl. The airs he gives himself! A
fellow might never have been engaged before. After listening to him
steadily for two hours on end the other night, I ventured one on my own
account.
"`I wonder,' I said tentatively, `if any girl will ever care enough to
be willing to be engaged to me?'
"He ruminated, and sucked his pipe: `Well,' he said slowly, `you're not
such a bad old beast!'
"Rather beastly of me all the same to bore you with all this. Forgive
me! As Vincent has appointed me his confidant I hear such a lot about
the affair that I turned on to it without thinking... The wedding won't
come off for another year. When _I'm_ engaged, I'll be married sharp!
"Now here's a subject for discussing in your next letter--Love and
marriage! It's a big bill, and--be discursive, please! You can't
possibly discuss such questions on one sheet. We know, of course, that
you are never to many. You are doomed to dry-nurse Martin for life,
whether he wants you or no. (Brutal! Sorry, dear!) Things being as
they are at the moment, we may premise that I also am doomed to
celibacy, but as onlookers see most of the game, there's no reason why
we shouldn't wag our heads together over the follies of lovers, and
expatiate on how much better we should have managed things ourselves.
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