And all modernity became as nothing then, and Charles was a simple man,
horrified by the sight of woman's grief. Now his abasement became
complete; now he groveled most properly; never, he vowed, would he cease
to censure himself most severely for this Occurrence. He wheedled, he
implored, he cajoled. But, of course, all this but made the matter
worse, threw his wary, inexcusable omissions into sharper and sharper
relief. And presently Miss Angela referred to him as _brutal_ (did she
not pause even after that, in a sort of expectant way?) and then ended
the tragedy by begging him to leave her, her fatally ringed hands held
fast before her eyes.
No such conclusion to the evening of wholesome pleasure could have been
devised by the wit of fiction-writers. Charles gathered up his hat and
coat like a thief, and let himself gently out into the night.
VIII
He turned in at the Green Park, in the still night, and stood gazing
with bitterness at a dim gigantic Citizen, who rose in bronze at the
intersection of two walkways. The Citizen gazed back with no bitterness
at all; but then, he was dead.
Charles Garrott, being very much alive, was thinking cadlike thoughts
with clarity and vigor. In the romances, men who won a maiden's sweet
kiss instantly besought her to name the day; failing that, they were
cads. But Charles was resolved to fail that, and he was struggling
determinedly not to feel a cad. He simply did not consider that Miss
Angela's kiss had such a pricelessness, entailing cosmic
responsibilities. Why was her kiss any sweeter than his own, to come
right down to it?
Now pure remorse had faded: self-interest, outraged self-respect, fought
to have their say. Indeed, Miss Angela herself could not well feel more
mortified over those unimagined salutes than he, the New Man, did. And
it was as if his humiliation had destroyed all that restraining sense of
a bond here, and the brutal Charles was free now for a frank facing of
his new reactions.
"Well, I won't marry her! I won't," said he to the calm Citizen. "I'll
call myself names for her, yes; I'll send her bonbons--flowers--that
sort of thing. I'll land Donald for her--that's a thought! I'll get her
invited to the Thursday German. But _marry her_!... No, the kindest
thing would be never to see her again."
[Illustration: "WELL, I WON'T MARRY HER! I WON'T!"]
And, gazing up in the silent darkness of the park, the unheroic young
man began to think how he could go to Berringer's by the Center Street
cars, and take his walks henceforth in the manufacturing district, and
in far countrysides.
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