Poets, English -- 19th century -- Biography; Shelley, Percy Bysshe, 1792-1822
Reason told him he ought to consider himself lucky if he were freed from
a very ordinary woman. If at that moment he loved at all, was it not
rather the heavenly Cornelia than Harriet whose miserable spite had
recently annoyed him so much? And, if he no longer loved her, to break
with her would be best. He had always taught that when passion’s trance
is over-past each should be free again. But it was in vain that he
reasoned thus with himself. He discovered with stupefaction that Percy
Shelley and Harriet Westbrook were no longer two separate and free
beings. The sum of past memories, caresses, joys, and sufferings
enmeshed them both in a web from which there was no escape.
He rushed up to town, determined either to offer Harriet his excuses or
to confess his faults. But she received him with harshness and irony.
Any heart-to-heart talk was out of the question.
His child-wife, so gentle and submissive only three months ago, now
showed herself cold and haughty. How had such a change come about? There
were instants when Shelley thought he detected, beneath pride’s hard
surface, a fleeting image of the other Harriet, but when he sought to
hold it by a loving word, it was gone. Against the steely armour of her
heart he knocked in vain.
Wandering about the streets without any object, he thought: “What a fool
I have been! Here I am tied for ever to a woman who does not love me,
who has never loved me. Evidently she only married me for the money and
title. . . . Now that she sees her hopes upset, she punishes me for her
mistake. . . .” And he repeated with disgust: “A heart of ice . . . a
lump of ice!”
Perhaps had he ever seen her alone he would have succeeded in thawing
it, but Eliza, prim, hostile, formidable, stood always between them, and
the gallant Major Ryan was in the wings, ready to commiserate the
cruelties of a doctrinaire husband.
After struggling for a few days, Shelley’s ardour was suddenly quenched.
Capable by fits and starts of an energy when nothing was impossible to
him, he fell as formerly after his long tramps at Oxford into an
insurmountable torpor, and his will-power like a dying candle-flame
threw up a final blaze of light before it expired.
When he saw that Harriet was obdurate, he gave up all hope of saving the
remnants of his married happiness, and he wrote to Bracknell to announce
he was coming on a month’s visit, and coming alone. He knew well that
after a month’s interval he would find Harriet completely ruined by her
hateful surroundings, he knew that a catastrophe would be the result of
the Bracknell interlude, but he was too tired to carry on the fight.
“What more am I now but an insect warming itself in a ray of sunshine?
The next cloud that passes will plunge me into the frozen darkness of
death.” And, in melancholy mood, he recited the lines from Burns:
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