For the seeds of many an illness were stored up in young bodies by
systematic under-feeding, and hunger turned most of us into wistful
little gluttons, gazing longingly into the cake-shops as we marched two
by two through the tiny city, dreaming at night of Barmecide feasts, and
envying the fate of the happier children at home, who devoured all the
sweet things we with our empty little stomachs so bitterly remembered.
Sweet things only! Enough of bread-and-butter would have satisfied our
craving. When one of us sickened and rejected the single thin slice of
bread-and-butter allowed the children at breakfast, oh, the prayer and
expectation of each pair of hungry eyes fixed upon the sufferer, to see
to whom she would offer her neglected slice! The slice was cut in two,
and usually offered, while the nun was not looking, to the children on
either side. This miscarriage of appetite, we noted with regret, more
frequently happened at the two tables of the big girls, where such
windfalls were constantly amplifying the meagre breakfasts of somebody
or other in long skirts. But we were only ten, and our appetite was
pretty steady and never satisfied. Now it taxes all my heroism to visit
the dentist; but then I knew each visit was a prospective joy, for, if I
did not cry, the lay-teacher who conducted me thither always allowed me
to buy a jam-tart, which I ate as slowly as possible in the
confectioner's shop, noting the ravages of my teeth in the cake of
delight with melancholy and dismay. I so loved the recompense that I
used to watch anxiously for the first sign of a shaky tooth, and the
instant it was removed, I was sure to shriek out excitedly--
"You see, Miss Lawson, I didn't cry a bit."
But I would not have it thought that those early school-days were days
of untempered bitterness and constant ache. We were a merry lot of
little savages as far as the authorities permitted us to enjoy
ourselves, and life continually revealed its quaint surprises and
thrilling terrors. I learnt to read with amazing rapidity, and my
favourite books were of a kind liberally supplied by the convent
library--Tyburn, wonderful tales of the escapes and underground
adventures of Jesuits, double walls, spring-doors, mysterious passages,
whitened bones in long-forgotten boxes. Thanks to my ingenuity and vivid
imagination, our days became for us all a wild romance. Relegated to the
infirmary by prolonged illnesses, the result of semi-starvation,
naturally I had leisure to read laboriously various volumes of this
edifying literature.
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