Rejoice with me, my dear Lady.--You _will_ rejoice, I know, you _will_. to find my eyes are open to my folly.--How could I be so vain; so presumptuous!--Yes, it must be vanity, it must be presumption to the highest,--gloss it over as I will,--to harbour thoughts which before this your Ladyship is acquainted with.--Did you not blush for me?--did you not in contempt throw aside my letter?--Undoubtedly you did.--Go, you said.--I am sure, dear Madam, you _must_ let me not again behold the weakness of that poor silly girl.--But this is my hope, you are not apt to judge unfavourably, _even_ in circumstances that will scarce admit of palliation.--Tell me, my dear Lady, I am pardoned; tell me so, and I shall never be again unhappy.--How charming, to have _peace_ and _tranquility_ restor'd, when I fear'd they were for _ever_ banish'd my breast!--I welcomed the friends;--my heart bounded at their return;--I smiled on them;--soothed them;--and promised never more to drive them out. Thank you, Lord Allen;--again, I thank you:--can I ever be too grateful?--You have been instrumental to my repose. The company that dined at the Abbey yesterday were Lord and Lady Allen, Lord Baily, Mr. Mrs. and Miss Winter.--This was the first day I changed my mourning;--a white lutestring, with the fine suit of rough garnets your Ladyship gave me, was my dress on the occasion.--But let me proceed to the incident for which I stand indebted for the secret tranquility, the innate repose I now possess in a _superlative_ degree.-- When I went to Mr. Jenkings's to dress for dinner, Lord Darcey attended me, as usual:--the coach was to fetch us.--I thought I never saw his Lordship in such high good humour; what I mean is, I never saw him in such spirits.--To speak the truth, his temper always appears unruffled;--sometimes a little gloomy; but I suppose he is not exempted from the common ills of life.--He entertained me on the way with a description of the company expected, interlarding his conversation with observations tending to raise my vanity. Notwithstanding his seeming sincerity, I was proof against such insinuations.--If he had stopp'd _there_,--well, if he had stop'd _there_;--what then?--Why then, perhaps, I should not have betray'd the weakness of my heart.--But I hope thy confusion pass'd unobserv'd;--I hope it was not seen before I could draw my handkerchief from my pocket: if it should, heavens! the very thought has dyed me scarlet. I am running on as though your Ladyship had been present in Mr. Jenkings's parlour,--in the coach,--and at table, whither I must conduct you, my dear Lady, if your patience will bear a minute _recital_.--First, then, to our conference in the parlour, after I was dress'd.