This was only the first half of the proceedings. But I must
interrupt my narrative here in order to turn the living light of
my memory upon Bashan. There are a number of coined phrases and
ready-made figures of speech which I might use for describing his
behaviour—current terms—terms which in most cases would be both
valid and appropriate. I might say, for example, that he was
thunderstruck. But this term does not please me, and I do not wish
to use it. Big words, the big, well-worn words, are not very
suitable for expressing the extraordinary. One may best achieve
this by intensifying the small words and forcing them to ascend to
the very acme of their meaning. So I will say no more than that
Bashan _started_ at the report of the gun and the accompanying
phenomena—and that this starting was the same as that which is
peculiar to him when confronted with something striking, and that
all this was well known to me though it was now elevated to the
_n_th degree. It was a start which flung his whole body backward,
wobbling to right and left, a start which jerked his head in rash
recoil against his chest and which, in recovering himself, almost
tore his head from his shoulders, a start which seemed to cry from
every fibre of his being: “What, what! _What_ was that? Hold! in
the name of a hundred thousand devils! _How_ was that!”
He listened to—he regarded everything with a kind of indignation
such as extremes of surprise are apt to cause—drank everything in,
as it were, and there in his heart of hearts these things were
already existing—there, in some form or other they had always
been—no matter what astounding novelties may have been sprung upon
him here. Yes, whenever these things came upon him, causing him to
leap to the right and the left and turn himself half around his
own axis, it always seemed to me as though he were attempting to
catch a glimpse of himself and inquiring: “What am I? Who am I? Am
I really I?” At the very moment in which the corpse of the duck
fell upon the water, Bashan made a leap forward, towards the edge
of the escarpment, as though he wished to go down into the river-bed
and plunge himself into the water. But then he thought of the
current, clamped the brakes upon this sudden impulse, grew ashamed,
and once more confined his efforts to staring.
I regarded him with anxiety. After the fall of the duck, I was of
the opinion that we had seen enough, and proposed that we should
go on. But he had already sat himself down upon his haunches. His
face, with ears erected to their utmost extent, was addressed
towards the other bank, and when I said to him: “Well, Bashan,
shall we go on?” he merely gave a flirt of his head in my direction,
as though one should say, not without a certain rudeness: “Please
do not disturb me!” and kept on looking. And so I gave in, crossed
my feet, leaned on my stick, and also went on watching to see what
might now take place.
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