I remember meeting somewhere with the complaint of a young poet who had
made trial of his muse and failed; the style was perhaps somewhat
quaint, but it spoke the language of truth, and I copied it out. I will
transcribe it for your edification, and so conclude this wandering
epistle. You must not ask me for the title of the book, for I am not
sure that I could give it you correctly. Besides, it would be of no use,
as the work I know is out of print.
"I could do better," says the poet in reply to his friend, who
had been suggesting the usual consolations and lenitives
applicable to the case, "but I could not so far excel what I
have written, as to make all the difference between obscurity
and fame. It is not a brief and tolerated existence in the
world of letters that can be a sanction and motive to my
endeavours; and since a noble immortality is denied me, I am
willing to sink at once into oblivion. The sentence has been
passed. I have not that obstinacy of hope which can make an
appeal to the decision of posterity. My labours have been
futile--my whole being has been an error--my life is without
aim or meaning."
"I sought it not," continued the disappointed bard, "I sought
not this gift of poesy--I despised not the ruder toils of
existence--I strove to pursue them, but I strove in vain. I
could not walk along this earth with the busy forward tread of
other men. The fair wonder detained and withheld me. Flowers on
their slender stalks could prove an hindrance in my path; the
light acacia would fling the barrier of its beauty across my
way; the slow-thoughted stream would bend me to its winding
current. Was it fault of mine that all nature was replete with
feeling that compassed and enthralled me? On the surface of the
lake at eventide, there lay how sweet a sadness! Hope visited
me from the blue hills. There was perpetual revelry of thought
amidst the clouds, and in the wide cope of heaven. This passion
of the poet came to me, not knowing what it was. It came the
gift of tranquil skies, and was breathed by playful zephyrs,
and fell on me, with many a serene influence from the bright
and silent stars.
"I saw others pursuing and enjoying the varied prosperity of
life--I felt no envy at their success, and no participation in
their desires. I could not call in and limit my mind to the
concerns of a personal welfare. I had leaned my ear unto the
earth, and heard the beating of her mighty heart, and the
murmur of her mysteries, and my spirit lost its fitness for any
selfish aim or narrow purpose. I stood forth to be the
interpreter of his own word to man. Alas! I myself am but
one--the poorest--of the restless and craving multitude.
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