Illegitimate children -- Fiction; Man-woman relationships -- Fiction; Middle West -- Fiction
“Well, when we are young we expect all things to come to us. We don’t
want them just to-day, but to-morrow?--we’ll whistle and down they
will come from the sky. That’s what we think. In my case, however,
they haven’t come. Ergo, I have lived disgracefully. Now I must begin
to die gracefully by turning to work. Yet isn’t it possible to look
upon the grotesque preoccupation of the American male as a trade, a
form of artisan-ship, a deed of the left hand? I know a man who sells
advertising, and who has more confidence in me than I should dare to
have in myself. He is decent enough to think that I can supply what he
wants. Why not try it?”
“Aren’t you writing anything nowadays, Miles?”
“Nothing,” he said, with a shrug. “Book reviews! What are book reviews?
Every time I have to go to see an editor and ask for a book, it
makes me feel as though selling hairpins from house to house is more
respectable. Besides, the literary world has forgotten me. I only fill
up space.”
“Nonsense,” said she vehemently. “And you’re wrong about business.
Business is pretty awful. I suppose you’ll have to find that out for
yourself.”
“There _are_ more delightful occupations, true. I have always had an
ambition to be a cab-driver. It is the sole profession in which one
becomes a licensed eavesdropper. Excellent for the literary man. You
know people mind the cabby no more than if he were the horse. I mean
a horse-cab, of course ... only in such leisurely vehicles do people
expose their souls, their most intimate secrets. But I haven’t the
cabby’s training. From things you have said, I fancied you knew horses.”
“A little. When I was a young girl I had some playmates who owned them.”
“Noble beasts. I’m sure they would break the neck of any poor fool who
had condescended to Pegasus.”
“The trouble with you, Miles, is that you don’t condescend often
enough, nor persistently enough. You ought to be writing poems at this
moment. You should have been doing it these last five years.”
“The impulse to creation begins with a peculiar tickling of the tummy
that I haven’t felt for ages.”
Her eagerness to start him writing usually came to nothing in some such
joke. At other times he would grow more serious.
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