He betrayed none of his grief over this estrangement, though the gulf
seemed to widen between him and his little son. The idea of suing for
his child’s favour seemed frightful to him. During the day he had small
time to spare; at meals he treated him with a friendly cordiality that
had at times a tonic severity. “Well, comrade,” he would say, giving
him a tap or two on the back of the head and seating himself opposite
his wife, “well, and how are you? Studying? And playing the piano, eh?
Good! But not too much piano, else you won’t want to do your task, and
then you won’t go up at Easter.” Not a muscle betrayed the anxious
suspense with which he waited to see how Hanno took his greeting and
what his reply would be. Nothing revealed his painful inward shrinking
when the child merely gave him a shy glance of the gold-brown, shadowy
eyes--a glance that did not even reach his father’s face--and bent
again over his plate.
It was monstrous for him to brood over this childish clumsiness. It was
his fatherly duty to occupy himself a little with the child: so, while
the plates were changed, he would examine him and try to stimulate his
sense for facts. How many inhabitants were there in the town? What
streets led from the Trave to the upper town? What were the names of
the granaries that belonged to the firm? Out with it, now; speak up!
But Hanno was silent. Not with any idea of wounding or annoying his
father! But these inhabitants, these streets and granaries, which were
normally a matter of complete indifference to him, became positively
hateful when they were made the subject of an examination. However
lively he was beforehand, however gaily he had laughed and talked with
his father, his mood would go down to zero at the first symptom of
an examination, and his resistance would collapse entirely. His eyes
would cloud over, his mouth take on a despondent droop, and he would
be possessed by a feeling of profound regret at the thoughtlessness of
Papa, who surely knew that such tests came to nothing and only spoiled
the whole meal time for everybody! With eyes swimming in tears he
looked down at his plate. Ida would nudge him and whisper to him: the
streets, the granaries. Oh, that was all useless, perfectly useless.
She did not understand. He did know the names--at least some of them.
It would have been easy to do what Papa asked--if only he were not
possessed and prevented by an overpowering sadness! A severe word from
his father and a tap with the fork against the knife rest brought him
to himself with a start. He cast a glance at his mother and Ida and
tried to speak. But the first syllables were already drowned in sobs.
“That’s enough,” shouted the Senator, angrily. “Keep still--you needn’t
tell me! You can sit there dumb and silly all the rest of your life!”
And the meal would be finished in uncomfortable silence.
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