The night of my visit to him was stormy. The Californian winter was on,
and the incessant rain plashed in the deserted streets, or, lifted by
irregular gusts of wind, was hurled against the houses with incredible
fury. With no small difficulty my cabman found the right place, away out
toward the ocean beach, in a sparsely populated suburb. The dwelling, a
rather ugly one, apparently, stood in the center of its grounds, which as
nearly as I could make out in the gloom were destitute of either flowers
or grass. Three or four trees, writhing and moaning in the torment of
the tempest, appeared to be trying to escape from their dismal
environment and take the chance of finding a better one out at sea. The
house was a two-story brick structure with a tower, a story higher, at
one corner. In a window of that was the only visible light. Something
in the appearance of the place made me shudder, a performance that may
have been assisted by a rill of rain-water down my back as I scuttled to
cover in the doorway.
In answer to my note apprising him of my wish to call, Dampier had
written, “Don’t ring—open the door and come up.” I did so. The
staircase was dimly lighted by a single gas-jet at the top of the second
flight. I managed to reach the landing without disaster and entered by
an open door into the lighted square room of the tower. Dampier came
forward in gown and slippers to receive me, giving me the greeting that I
wished, and if I had held a thought that it might more fitly have been
accorded me at the front door the first look at him dispelled any sense
of his inhospitality.
He was not the same. Hardly past middle age, he had gone gray and had
acquired a pronounced stoop. His figure was thin and angular, his face
deeply lined, his complexion dead-white, without a touch of color. His
eyes, unnaturally large, glowed with a fire that was almost uncanny.
He seated me, proffered a cigar, and with grave and obvious sincerity
assured me of the pleasure that it gave him to meet me. Some unimportant
conversation followed, but all the while I was dominated by a melancholy
sense of the great change in him. This he must have perceived, for he
suddenly said with a bright enough smile, “You are disappointed in
me—_non sum qualis eram_.”
I hardly knew what to reply, but managed to say: “Why, really, I don’t
know: your Latin is about the same.”
He brightened again. “No,” he said, “being a dead language, it grows in
appropriateness. But please have the patience to wait: where I am going
there is perhaps a better tongue. Will you care to have a message in
it?”
The smile faded as he spoke, and as he concluded he was looking into my
eyes with a gravity that distressed me. Yet I would not surrender myself
to his mood, nor permit him to see how deeply his prescience of death
affected me.
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