England -- Social life and customs -- 19th century -- Fiction
‘I wonder if papa will be changed? I wonder if the house will look
strange? I wonder----’ said Cara, half under her breath. She was not
talking to him, yet perhaps if he had not been with her, she would not
have said the words aloud. He was a kind of shield to her from others,
an unconscious half-companion. She did not mind what she said when he
was there. Sometimes she replied to him at random; often he so answered
her, not knowing what she meant. It was from want of comprehension on
his part, not want of attention; but it was simple carelessness on hers.
He listened to these wonderings of hers eagerly, with full
determination to fathom what she meant.
‘He will be changed, and so will the house,’ said Roger. ‘We may be sure
of it. You were but a child when you left; now you are a--young lady.
Even if he was not changed, you would think him so,’ cried Roger, with
insight which surprised himself; ‘but those who have grown up with you,
Cara--I, for instance, who have seen you every day, I can never change.
You may think so, but you will be mistaken. I shall always be the same.’
She turned to look at him, half amused, half wondering. ‘You, Roger; but
what has that to do with it?’ she said. How little she cared! She had
faith in him: oh, yes; did not think he would change; believed he would
always be the same. What did it matter? It did not make her either
sadder or gladder to know that it was unlikely there would be any
alteration in him.
‘What are you doing here, Cara, when you ought to be looking after your
guests, or playing croquet, or amusing yourself?’
‘I am amusing myself, Aunt Cherry, as much as I wish to amuse myself. It
is not amusing to go away.’
‘My darling, we must think of your poor father,’ said Miss Cherry, her
voice trembling; ‘and there are all your young friends. Will you go and
help to form that game, Roger? They want a gentleman. Cara, dear, I
would rather you did not walk with Roger Burchell like this, when
everybody is here.’
‘He said he had something to show me,’ said Cara. ‘I was glad to get
away. All this looks so like saying farewell; as if I might never be
here again.’
‘Cara, if you make me cry, I shall not be fit to be seen; and we must
not make a show of ourselves before all these people.’ Miss Cherry
pressed her handkerchief to her eyes. ‘I am so silly; my eyes get so red
for nothing. What did Roger have to show you? He ought to be at work,
that boy.’
‘He has an aunt at Notting Hill,’ said Cara, with a soft laugh; ‘and he
told me he meant to come to town on Sundays instead of coming here. He
says he shall see me quite as often as usual. I suppose he thought I
should miss him. Poor Roger! if that were all!’
‘But, Cara, we must not allow that,’ said Miss Cherry. ‘I must speak to
his mother. See him every Sunday, as usual! it is ridiculous; it must
be put a stop to. Roger Burchell! a lad who is nobody, who has his way
to make in the world, and neither connections, nor fortune, nor any
advantage----’
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