_This lovely scene that soothed my weariness and made me happy,
bringing to my lips soft sentimental phrases, was a shambles! In a
spruce that bowered from my porch, I watched a brown thrasher wheel
and screech about a branch in which an owl, ensconced, brooded over
its young. The little bird was delirious with fear. It threshed its
wings and screamed: it pecked at the robber owl and flew away. It
wheeled, screamed up its courage, shot in and pecked again. Robins were
devouring worms. A handsome woodpecker massacred wood-slugs on the boll
of a beech. No single creature in that gentle dusk, but was engaged in
bitter desperate war. And I sat, idle, burning my tobacco, slaying the
mosquito that dared to buzz within the reach of my majesty.... All the
world was murdering or murdered. Was it less fair for that?_
_My time was to come. And I, like these humbler creatures of the lawn,
knew my hours of crisis, knew the heartbreak of desire, the black
shrouds of failure. Was my time less fair for that?_
_O reader, if you must glean a moral from my story, let it be this! I
lean back over the Precipice of Time, and greedily relive those hours
which you call hours of anguish: relive those days of failure, since
they were living days. Was it not then that my heart beat highest, that
passion coursed most free, that I was most alive?_
_Out of the ash that you call history, rises the eternal flame of Love.
Warm yourselves there, my brothers and my sisters. For the time will
come when you will watch Love’s distant gleam, desperate and nostalgic
like a winter moth which beats on the frosted window trying to get in
where the light burns, which beats and beats until it falls emaciate in
the snow...._
THE END
_1923-1924_
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