Great Britain -- Politics and government -- 1800-1837 -- Fiction; Historical fiction; Political fiction
_But never either found another
To free the hollow heart from paining.
They stood aloof, the scars remaining,
Like cliffs which had been rent asunder.
A dreary sea now flows between,
But neither heat, nor frost, nor thunder,
Shall wholly do away, I ween,
The marks of that which once hath been_.
The mother handed the book back to the daughter without looking at her.
“No,” she said; “I don’t think it is a case like that.”
But a moment later she wiped her eyes furtively, and then she told her
daughter more, it is to be feared, than Mrs. Fairchild would have
approved.
* * * * *
Sir Robert, when they were gone, went heavily to the library, a
panelled room looking to the back, in which it was his custom to sit.
For many years he had passed some hours of every day, when he was at
home, in that room; and until now it had never occurred to his mind
that it was dull or shabby. But it was old Mapp’s habit to lower the
blinds for his master’s after-luncheon nap, and they were still down;
and the half light which filtered in was like the sheet which rather
accentuates than hides the sharp features of the dead. The faded
engravings and the calf-bound books which masked the walls, the
escritoire, handsome and massive, but stained with ink and strewn with
dog’s eared accounts, the leathern-covered chair long worn out of shape
by his weight, the table beside it with yesterday’s “Standard,” two or
three volumes of the “Anti-Jacobin,” and the “Quarterly,” a month old
and dusty—all to his opened eyes wore a changed aspect. They spoke of
the slow decay of years, unchecked by a woman’s eye, a woman’s hand.
They told of the slow degradation of his lonely life. They indicated a
like change in himself.
He stood a few moments on the hearth, looking about him with a shocked,
pained face. The months and the years had passed irrevocably, while he
sat in that chair, poring in a kind of lethargy over those books,
working industriously at those accounts. Asked, he had answered that he
was growing old, and grown old. But he had never for a moment
comprehended, as he comprehended now, that he was old. He had never
measured the difference between this and that; between those days
troubled by a hundred annoyances, vexations, cares, when in spite of
all he had lived, and these days of sullen stagnancy and mere
vegetation.
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