"There's only the one," Helders repeated. "The others is little bits of
babies, or else spoke for like ours--long ago. It seems they do that
way. But I want you should do something: I want you and Matthew should
take this one. Mother and I--are older ... we ain't set store so much...."
Ellen shook her head, and made him know, with what words she could find,
that it could not be so. Then she knelt and touched at the coat of the
child, a small frightened thing, with cap too large for him and one
mitten lost. But he looked up brightly, and his eyes stayed on the
Christmas tree. Ellen said little things to him, and went to take down
for him some trifle from the tree.
"I'm just as much obliged," she said quietly to Helders. "I never
thought of there not being enough. We'll wait."
Helders was fumbling for something.
"Here's your candles, I thought you might want them for somethin' else,"
he said, and turned to Matthew: "And here's your quarter. I didn't get
the toy you mentioned. I thought you wouldn't want it, without the
little kid."
Matthew looked swiftly at Ellen. He had not told her that he had sent by
Helders for a toy. And at that Ellen crossed abruptly to her husband,
and she was standing there as they let Helders out, with the little boy.
Ellen's father pounded his knee.
"But how long'll we have to wait? How long'll we have to wait?" he
demanded shrilly. "King and country, why didn't somebody ask him that?"
Matthew tore open the door.
"Helders!" he shouted, "how long did they say we'd have to wait?"
"Mebbe only a week or two--mebbe longer," Helders' voice came out of the
dark. "They couldn't tell me."
Ellen's mother stood fastening up a fallen tinsel walnut.
"Let's us leave the tree right where it is," she said. "Even with it
here, we won't have enough Christmas to hurt anything."
XI
On that morning of the day before Christmas, Mary Chavah woke early,
while it was yet dark. With closed eyes she lay, in the grip of a dream
that was undissipated by her waking. In the dream she had seen a little
town lying in a hollow, lighted and peopled, but without foundation.
"It isn't born yet," they told her, who looked with her, "and the people
are not yet born."
"Who is the mother?" she had asked, as if everything must be born of
woman.
"You," they had answered.
On which the town had swelled and rounded and swung in a hollow of
cloud, globed and shining, like the world.
"You," they had kept on saying.
The sense that she must bear and mother the thing had grasped her with
all the sickening force of dream fear. And when the dream slipped into
the remembrance of what the day would bring her, the grotesque terror
hardly lessened, and she woke to a sense of oppression and coming
calamity such as not even her night of decision to take the child had
brought to her, a weight as of physical faintness and sickness.
"I feel as if something was going to happen," she said, over and over.
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