Confession; Or, The Blind Heart. A Domestic StorySimms, William Gilmore
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Confession; Or, The Blind Heart. A Domestic Story
Simms, William Gilmore
Domestic fiction
Surely there is no joy like that which the heart feels in the first
moment when it gives utterance to its own, and hears the avowed passion
of the desired object:--a pure flame, the child of sentiment, just
blushing with the hues of passion, just budding with the breath and
bloom of life. No sin has touched the sentiment;--no gross smokes have
risen to involve and obscure the flame; the altar is tended by pure
hands; white spirits; and there is no reptile beneath the fresh
blossoming flowers which are laid thereon. The grosser passions sleep,
like the fumes at the shrine of Apollo, beneath the spell of that
master passion in whose presence they can only maintain a subordinate
existence. I loved; I had told my love;--and I was loved in return. I
trembled with the deep intoxication of that bewildering moment; and how
I found my way back to my office--whom I saw on the way, or to whom I
spoke, I know not. I loved;--I was beloved. He only can conceive the
delirium of this sweet knowledge who has passed a life like mine--who
has felt the frowns and the scorn, and the contempt of those who should
have nurtured him with smiles--whose soul, ardent and sensitive, has
been made to recoil cheerlessly back on itself--denied the sunshine of
the affections, and almost forbade to hope. Suddenly, when I believed
myself most destitute, I had awakened to fortune--to the realization
of desires which were beyond my fondest dreams. I, whom no affection
hitherto had blessed, had, in a moment, acquired that which seemed to
me to comprise all others, and for which all others might have been
profitably thrown away.
I fancied now that henceforth my sky was to be without a cloud. I did
not--nor did Julia imagine for a moment that any opposition to our love
could arise from her parents. What reason now could they have to oppose
it? There was no inequality in our social positions. My blood had taken
its rise from the same fountains with her own. In the world's estimation
my rank was quite as respectable as that of any in my uncle's circle,
and, for my condition, my resources, though small, were improving daily,
and I had already attained such a place among my professional brethren,
as to leave it no longer doubtful that it must continue to improve.
My income, with economy--such economy as two simple, single-minded
creatures, like Julia and myself, were willing to employ--would already
yield us a decent support. In short, the idea of my uncle's opposition
to the match never once entered my head. Yet he did oppose it. I was
confounded with his blunt, and almost rugged refusal.
“Why, sir, what are your objections?”
He answered with sufficient coolness.
“I am sorry to refuse you, Edward, but I have already formed other
arrangements for my daughter. I have designed her for another.”
“Indeed, sir--may I ask with whom?”
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