Confessions of the CzarinaRadziwill, Catherine, Princess
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Confessions of the Czarina
Radziwill, Catherine, Princess
Alexandra, Empress, consort of Nicholas II, Emperor of Russia, 1872-1918; Russia -- Court and courtiers
One day Madame Wyrubewa, whether accidentally or intentionally, left the
Colonel alone with the Czarina. He saw his opportunity, and began more
seriously than he had ever done before to implore her to make an effort
to save herself. The young man grew quite eloquent, until Alexandra,
moved beyond words, started weeping in real earnest and asked him how he
could suggest the possibility of a reconciliation between her and the
Czar, in view of his own feelings for her, the nature of which she had
guessed for some time. To her surprise, the Colonel fell on his knees
before her and told her that it was because of these very feelings that
he had felt himself justified in speaking to her as he had done. He was
nothing beside her, and all he could do was to worship her from afar,
and to try to come to her help, both for her own sake and for that of
their country, that required from them both the supreme sacrifice he was
asking of her. For once the cold and haughty Czarina was startled out
of her usual indifference, and when they parted she had promised her
devoted knight and admirer that, though she might not make an effort to
win back the love of her husband, yet she would not repulse him, as she
had done lately, if he made any attempt to return to her. She promised
that on the love she owned to him that she felt for him, and on that of
the one which they both had for this great Russia, which Orloff had
never forgotten even amid the fervor of his passion. When Madame
Wyrubewa came back to the room where she had left her two friends, she
saw that something had happened, but she was far too clever to question
them, and when the Empress said it was time for her to go home she
simply offered to accompany her, hoping that something might be told to
her during their walk back to the Palace. For once Alexandra was silent,
and parted from Anna without betraying anything of what had passed
during that half-hour when she had been left alone with the first man
who had aroused some interest in her otherwise impassible heart.
Colonel Orloff was not so discreet, in the sense that he related to his
friend all that had taken place between him and the Czarina--related it
with such agitation and poignant regret that she saw at once that she
was in the presence of a feeling capable of driving the man who was
under its influence to any heights of personal sacrifice. She then
communicated to him a plan out of which she hoped to find the solution
of the troubles against which the Empress was struggling so bravely, but
apparently so uselessly. It was a daring plan and it required much
daring to accomplish it; but the future of the woman they both loved was
at stake, and she thought they ought to risk it.
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