Detective and mystery stories; Disappeared persons -- Fiction; Smuggling -- Fiction; Women journalists -- Fiction
“Last night,” he said, “moved by an excitement to which I fancied
myself immune, certain words were surprised from me.”
“I don’t remember,” Carmel said, weakly.
“Pardon me,” he said, “you _do_ remember. Your manner toward me assures
me of your complete recollection.”
“Indeed!”
“However, in order to avoid misapprehensions I shall refresh your
memory. My words, and I remember them exactly, were as follows: ‘I
believe I’ve fallen in love with you.’”
“Oh, _that_,” said Carmel, as if the matter were of no moment.
“That.... Exactly. Er--your physical peril aroused in me an excitement
and apprehension most distasteful to me. I have been puzzled for some
time with respect to yourself and the strange effect your presence has
upon me. The matter became clear last night. I said I believed I was in
love with you. That was inaccurate. I _knew_ I was in love with you.”
“But----” Carmel began. Evan held up his hand as to an interruption in
a classroom.
“If you please.... I discovered a fact, and one must deal with facts.
I slept little last night for considering this one. I have reached a
definite and final conclusion, and wish the matter to be understood
between us once for all, and so disposed of.”
“Mr. Pell----” Again he imposed silence upon her.
“I am unable to perceive how this distressing condition came into
being. It was wholly without intention on my part--against my every
instinct. I do not wish to be in love with you.”
“Indeed!” said Carmel.
“Quite the contrary. Therefore I wish to impress upon you that nothing
can come of it.”
“And do you suppose----” Once again Carmel essayed to speak; once more
he interrupted.
“Be so good as to allow me to finish. Please understand my words to be
final. I will not marry you. In no circumstances will I make you my
wife. I do not want a wife.... It is no fault of mine that I am in love
with you, and therefore I shall not permit myself to suffer for what I
cannot help. I shall take measures to affect a cure, for the thing, as
I see it, is a species of mental ailment.... Therefore, let me repeat,
in spite of the condition in which I find myself, you need not expect
me to become your husband.... The matter is closed between us.”
He turned from her abruptly and became much occupied with the papers
upon his desk.
As for Carmel, she was in a state of mind. The thing manifestly was an
outrage, an indignity, a humiliation, and she was angry. On the other
hand, it was absurd, impossibly absurd, inhumanly absurd, and the
laughter which struggled to come was only repressed by a wave of pity.
The pity engulfed both anger and laughter. Poor, dryly crackling man!
What must his life be without human warmth and human emotions! She was
able to see the thing impersonally--the dreadful abnormality of his
existence, so that when she spoke it was without rancor and gently.
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