“Same here. But I wudna ask him,” said John, becoming grave. “Wud
you?”
She shook her head, “I tried to, on Sunday, but some way I coudna.
He’s changin’.”
“He’s growin’ up, Lizzie.”
“I suppose ye’re richt,” she said reluctantly, and resumed her
knitting.
* * * * *
From the darkest spot he could find on the opposite pavement Macgregor
saw Christina come out of the shop, pass under a lamp, and disappear.
He felt sorely depressed during the return journey. The dictionary had
failed to increase either his knowledge or his self-esteem. He
wondered whether History or Geography would do any good; there were
books on these subjects in the house. He realised that he knew nothing
about anything except his trade, and even there he had to admit that
he had learned less than he might have done. And yet he had always
wanted to be a painter.
The same night he started reading the History of England, and found it
a considerable improvement on the Dictionary. He managed to keep awake
until the arrival of Julius Cæsar. Unfortunately he had taken the book
to bed, and his mother on discovering it in the morning indiscreetly
asked him what he had been doing with it. “Naething special,” was his
reply, indistinctly uttered, and here ended his historical studies,
though for days after Lizzie left the book prominent on the chest of
drawers.
* * * * *
The day being Saturday, the afternoon was his own. Through the rain he
made his way furtively to a free library, but became too
self-conscious at the door, and fled. For the sum of threepence a
picture house gave him harbourage, and save when the scenes were very
exciting he spent the time in trying not to wonder what Christina
would think of him, if she thought at all. He came forth ashamed and
in nowise cheered by the entertainment.
In the evening he went once more to watch her leave the shop. M. Tod
came to the door with her, and they stood talking for a couple of
minutes, so that he had more than a glimpse of her. And a spirit arose
in him demanding that he should attempt something to prove himself,
were it only with his hands. It was not learning, but earning, that
would make him “guid enough yet”; not what he could say, but what he
could do. There would be time enough for speaking “genteel English”
and so on after――well, after he had got up in the world.
For a moment he felt like running after Christina and making her
hearken to his new hope, but self-consciousness prevailed and sent him
homewards.
“Hullo!” From a close came a husky voice, apologetic, appealing.
“Hullo, Wullie!” Macgregor stopped. He was not sorry to meet Willie;
he craved companionship just then, though he had no confidence to
give.
“Are ye for hame?”
“Ay.”
“I――I’ll come wi’ ye, if ye like, Macgreegor?”
“Come on then.”
Willie came out, and they proceeded along the street without remark
until Macgregor enquired――――
“Where are ye workin’ the noo, Wullie?”
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