American fiction -- 19th century; Short stories, American
After luncheon we went for a long walk through the autumnal fields and
woods, and dusk was falling when we re-entered the house. Grancy led the
way to the library, where, at this hour, his wife had always welcomed
us back to a bright fire and a cup of tea. The room faced the west, and
held a clear light of its own after the rest of the house had grown dark.
I remembered how young she had looked in this pale gold light, which
irradiated her eyes and hair, or silhouetted her girlish outline as she
passed before the windows. Of all the rooms the library was most peculiarly
hers; and here I felt that her nearness might take visible shape. Then, all
in a moment, as Grancy opened the door, the feeling vanished and a kind
of resistance met me on the threshold. I looked about me. Was the room
changed? Had some desecrating hand effaced the traces of her presence? No;
here too the setting was undisturbed. My feet sank into the same deep-piled
Daghestan; the bookshelves took the firelight on the same rows of rich
subdued bindings; her armchair stood in its old place near the tea-table;
and from the opposite wall her face confronted me.
Her face--but _was_ it hers? I moved nearer and stood looking up at
the portrait. Grancy’s glance had followed mine and I heard him move to my
side.
“You see a change in it?” he said.
“What does it mean?” I asked.
“It means--that five years have passed.”
“Over _her_?”
“Why not?--Look at me!” He pointed to his gray hair and furrowed temples.
“What do you think kept _her_ so young? It was happiness! But now--“
he looked up at her with infinite tenderness. “I like her better so,” he
said. “It’s what she would have wished.”
“Have wished?”
“That we should grow old together. Do you think she would have wanted to be
left behind?”
I stood speechless, my gaze travelling from his worn grief-beaten features
to the painted face above. It was not furrowed like his; but a veil
of years seemed to have descended on it. The bright hair had lost its
elasticity, the cheek its clearness, the brow its light: the whole woman
had waned.
Grancy laid his hand on my arm. “You don’t like it?” he said sadly.
“Like it? I--I’ve lost her!” I burst out.
“And I’ve found her,” he answered.
“In _that_?” I cried with a reproachful gesture.
“Yes; in that.” He swung round on me almost defiantly. “The other had
become a sham, a lie! This is the way she would have looked--does look, I
mean. Claydon ought to know, oughtn’t he?”
I turned suddenly. “Did Claydon do this for you?”
Grancy nodded.
“Since your return?”
“Yes. I sent for him after I’d been back a week--.” He turned away and gave
a thrust to the smouldering fire. I followed, glad to leave the picture
behind me. Grancy threw himself into a chair near the hearth, so that the
light fell on his sensitive variable face. He leaned his head back, shading
his eyes with his hand, and began to speak.
III
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